Am I in Love

Am I In Love? - Chapter 8

*Author's note*

So i don't really have much to say so I'm going to just go eat my brownies.

~BrOwNiE

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"Hello Derek? What's wrong with you? You've been acting all weird today?" I snap out of it and look up into Cassidy's eyes. "Huh? What?" I say. She rolls her eyes and goes to her closet picking out a pair of black leggings and a Victoria' Secret sweatshirt. She then walks to her drawers picking out a pink pair of panties. I look away and over to our pictures on her desk. "What's  wrong with you?" she giggles "You've seen me get dressed millions of times and now you can't bare to look at me?" "Sorry?" I say looking over at her. She's standing there in her panties little pick panties and a matching sports bra. My eyes can't help but wander up and down her gorgeous figure. Short but lean legs. Flat stomach. Small hips. She was just flawless. It felt weird thinking of her in this way.  My entire life I never payed attention to a girl like now. My eyes have always drifted over to guys. Guys like Jake, with their tall lean bodies. Muscular arms and cut smooth collar bones. And i cant forget about that jaw line. Jesus that jaw line. He's everything anyone could hope for.  I stop thinking of him just as Cassidy rolls her eyes again and starts leaving the room. "You're such a weirdo." she says as she walks out the door.  I start heading out right behind her. We head down to the kitchen where she looks for the box of Fruity Pebbles. Oh Cass and her Fruity Pebbles. I've never seen anyone who loves it more than she does.  She pulls out the box to find it nearly empty. I watch as she picks up her phone and calls her mom. "What am i ever going to do with you?" I laugh " You can't go one day without having your cereal can you?" She sticks her tongue out as her mom picks up. "hey mom?" she says "Do you mind bringing home some more Fruity Pebbles? We're running out.. Okay mom.. Thanks.. Yea everything's fine.. Uhm I don't know let me ask him... Derek are you staying for dinner?" "Sure i don't mind" I say to her. "He said yes mom.. Ok.. Love you too mom. See you soon.. Bye." she puts the phone down and looks at me. "I'll beat you to the Xbox." She says as she starts running to the living room. I run after her picking her up from behind and spinning her around. "No you won't I say." putting her down. She turned to look at me a faint shade of red creeping onto her face as I looked into her eyes. Gosh were they just beautiful. I felt something weird. I was like there was a needing for her. I mean it could just be because of our close friendship. She's always been like a sister to me but lately being around her makes me feel all weird on the inside. Soon enough she looked away turning to the living room.

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***Cassidy's P.O.V***

Staring into Derek's eyes brought back all those emotions that I've been pushing away for so long. I felt a longing for him. I mean I've been in love with him since middle school. I know its wrong since he's gay and all, but I still have some hope deep down that he might possibly one day wake up and tell me that he loves me. Never have I wanted to kiss his beautiful plump lips as badly as now. I turn heading to the living room holding back tears. Whatever I feel for Derek needs to go away because sadly, me and him, aren't to be. I look at my phone as I sit on the couch. There's three texts two of which I notice right away are from Jake. I smile softly opening up the messages. "Hey baby girl I hope you got home safely." read the first one. She moved onto the second "Hey is everything alright? Do you need me to come over? Let me know when you get this right away." She noticed how much he really cared for her. Something she hadn't realized before now. "I'm fine babe, I was showering that's all. Derek's staying over for a little while." she replied to Jake as Derek sat next to her with the Xbox controllers. "So.. What's up?" I say trying to break the awkwardness between us. "Oh uhm.." He clears his throat. "Uhm.. you know the usual.." It got up to put a game into the Xbox and quickly sat back down as it loaded up. We sat there in an awkward silence until the game started. Throughout the game I'd glance over at Derek Admiring his sharp jaw line and the way it would tighten as he deeply concentrated on the game. "Yes! another win Derek McKinley!" He nearly yells and I roll my eyes at him. Just then my Mom walks in the door with my little brother Drake running to me. "Hi Cassidy look what I did in school today!" he says showing me a drawing he had done. I smiled at him, "It looks so good Drake. When did you learn to draw?" "In art class Cassidy." He said back to me just as my mom yelled over to him. "Drake why don't you run upstairs and get ready for dinner sweetie." He ran upstairs heading to the bathroom to shower. I sat there as Derek slowly put his arm around my shoulder. I looked at him then looked down noticing the rope burns left on my wrists. Derek looked at me, "I'm so glad you're okay. I'm so sorry for not walking you home.." He said kissing the top of my head. "It's fine Derek.. It wasn't your fault.." I say back to him. What I wouldn't do to just be able to kiss him right now..

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*Author's Note*

So that's it for this chapter. Hope you enjoyed it and I'll see you in chapter 9!!

~BrOwNiE