Am I in Love

Am I in Love - chapter 5

*Author's note*

Hello my beautiful readers. This is chapter 5 to my story. Hope you're enjoying it.

Can someone get me brownies? I know... I'm obsessed with them. Not my fault they're yummy.

~BrOwNiE

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"OMG," I can't believe you were almost raped. I knew Jake should have brought you home." I roll my eyes at Jackie's comment. "Then why didn't you say anything before I left." Jackie doesn't answer me.

"The important thing is that you're safe." says Jake, wrapping a protective arm around me. I smile slightly, then look at Derek. He seems to have a worried look on his face. I smile at him to reassure him that I'm fine. He smiles back and I feel my heart skip a beat.

I can't help it. The feelings I have towards Derek are strong. It's nothing I've ever felt before. When I'm near him I get butterflies in my stomach. I feel happy around him, I just can't help but smile.

I know it sounds stupid since I'm currently dating Jake, and because Derek is gay. No matter how many times I think to myself Derek is gay, I can't get it through my head. I always feel as if me and Derek could actually have a chance.

I jump out of my thoughts, and back into reality. Just then the bell rings. We all get up and start heading to class.

Jake, being the type of boyfriend he is, takes my hand in his intwining his fingers with mine.

Everyone has their eyes on us. Some whisper to one another while staring. I'm almost ready to punch these bitches in the face. They act like they've never seen a couple before.

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We're sitting in our seats just as the the bell rings indicating that class has just begun.

"Well look who decided to show up for class today." Jake, Derek, Jackie,

Jace, Alex, Billy, and I all snap our heads up to the sound of Mr.Goldston's voice.

"I'd like to speak to the 7 of you after class." I roll my eyes and start doodling in my notebook. I don't really pay attention to Mr.Goldston like always. I guess he saw that I wasn't paying attention and decided to call on me.

"Cassidy, would u please care to give us the answer to the problem since you paying close attention." he says in a sarcastic voice. I snap my head up feeling a faint blush of embarrassment approach my cheeks. "It's uhh... umm..." "Thank you Cassidy for that wonderful answer." I lay my head on my desk letting out a soft sigh.

We're halfway through class, and I have a weird feeling someone is staring at me. I look over at Derek, catching him staring at me. He looks away and I smile slightly. I wonder what he feels when he looks at me.

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** Derek P.O.V

I look away as I catch Cassidy look over at me. A lot of things have changed since I told her I was gay. Our friendship became stronger. We've gotten harder to separate. Whatever she goes through I go through it with her and whatever I go through she goes through it with me.

When I heard she was almost raped my heart just tore in two. I knew I should have walked home with her. I knew something bad would happen I just knew it. I was stupid to just let her walk home alone.

I kept looking at her all throughout class. If she'd catch me looking at her I would look away. Sometimes I feel as if I love Cassidy more than just a friend, but then again I'm gay. Only person I ever loved, and ever wanted to be more than friends with is Jake.

It's useless though since Jake is now dating Cassidy. It hurt, but I can't do anything about it. Jake isn't gay. He doesn't like guys, he like girls.

I sit through the rest of the class drawing in my notebook. I ended up drawing a heart torn in two. In one half I put Jake's name and the other I put mine.

I look over at Jake and let out a soft sigh. As expected he's looking at Cassidy. My one and only other half.

The bell rings snapping me out of my thoughts. "Derek, Jake, Cassidy, Jace, Jackie, Alex, and Billy, may I speak to you please." we all walkover to Mr. Goldston. I watch as he hands out detention slips to all of us. " I would like to see the 7 of you here for detention tomorrow afternoon.

"Sorry Mr. Goldston. No can do. I have a meeting with the cops tomorrow. They want to hear exactly what happen yesterday when I was walking home." I look over at Cassidy and my heart drops.

I feel bad for her. She doesn't deserve to go through that. "Well Cassidy, I guess you'll have to reschedule because you're stuck in detention tomorrow afternoon." "Suck my dick bitch." I hear her mumble under her breath. I let out a soft chuckle. Oh Cassidy. She hasn't changed one bit.

"You may all leave now. I would like to see all 7 of you tomorrow after school." says Mr. Goldston handing each of us a detention slip.

We walk out of his room and I watch as Cassidy takes the detention slip and throws it away. This girl seriously has my stomach feeling weird. It just can't be love, I'm in love with Jake.

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*Author's note*

Weeellllll... I hope you enjoyed it. I'm going to write chapter 6 now and hopefully get through chapter 7 by tomorrow morning. Comment any ideas you have and I'll add my favorite ones.

~BrOwNiE