Midnight Blue

🟡🔴 106.) Long Ache ✔

My heart...

I can't lose this person too.

I'm told they would never leave,

But true value comes at a cost.

Nothing can replace the friendship.

Nothing can replace them.

That's why the thought kills me.

I already gave away a nickname which was happiness itself.

Pure happiness.

So I am fine keeping it that way.

How does one explain this complicated feeling?

I want their own happiness.

I always wanted a friend like them.

Knowing no one can compare to their level even hurts me

To even try finding someone else...

Just knowing I went through what I went through and they were there again...

I want more happiness for them.

It's one reason I rushed with another.

I am not trying to use, hurt, or do any bad thing.

I never intended for any of this to happen and I know they didn't either.

They're one of the best friends I've ever had.

I already lost one that was supposed to be... one...

Their peaceful soul has been easy on the soul.

I can't stand having to find another friend again.

When I was in pain from this last all I could think about was how I knew they understood.

To be fair, I've always wanted to be around them sometimes when dealing with others.

I've mentioned how nice they were.

The two related animals.

They've always managed to calm me down and sometimes in unexpected ways.

Like when I've cried over knowing the perfect marriage date wasn't going to work.

I feel like I need to go away for I don't know how long as I am fine...

There's this other half that tries looking up reasoning to the words "not bad".

It's painful considering everything...

I still don't want to use, hurt, or do anything bad.

I lost one thing and know I will with you when finding another.

No one can beat their soul.

It's so painful to accept for myself.