LANDON
Well I really fucked things up; just like everything else in my life. For a moment I felt like me and Josie were getting somewhere, but then my father had to come and ruin it! How embarrassing to be twenty four years old and have your father walk in on you making out. I already know what he was thinking, how sinful my actions were and blah blah blah. I really don't give a shit; I can make my own damn decisions.
Josie probably hates me too; I can tell by the way she's not speaking to me. I haven't said anything to her either though; what could you possibly say? Maybe I should just leave her alone, ghost her completely, and forget any of this happened.
When we pull up to the store Josie gets out of the car and says bye to me. I don't even bother to look at her and pull away fast. Tears start to pool my eyes but I don't let them fall. I'm so angry at myself and the situation! I shouldn't have let her leave right after my dad walked in; I should have just told her I was sorry and to stay. But to top it all off I called her my girlfriend! What in hell came over me? Honestly I was just trying to save my ass. If my father knew I just met her yesterday, and was kissing her like that...he would flip all kinds of shit.
After pulling back up to the house I find myself stuck, unable to move. I hate myself even more after leaving her, I could have at least gotten her phone number, but instead I chose to just drive away. I pound my fist hard on the steering wheel, hard enough that the horn accidentally goes off.
My parents come running outside like some damn psychos. They act like they've never heard a car horn before. I roll my eyes and instantly think of Josie, god that woman will not leave me alone.
"Landon! Are you alright?" my mother says
"Yes I'm fine! What is wrong with you two?" I scowl walking towards the house.
"You father told me you had a girl over at the house, he said he walked in on you..."
"On what mom? I wasn't having sex! I was kissing her!"
"It looked like a lot more than that!" my father steps in
"Oh Landon stop it! You're acting crazy! You know how we feel about situations like that" my mother says
"That was my girlfriend mom; she's not just a situation." What in the hell did I just say?
"Since when do you have a girlfriend?" my father says
"Since none of your damn business!" I storm off
They looked shocked. I know I just lied straight to my parents face but I don't give a shit. I'm going to hell anyway.
JOSIE
As soon as I get home I run upstairs and cry, burying my face in the pillow so I can scream as loud as possible. I hate Landon, I hate him so much. How could he just kiss me like that and then just not say one word about it, like it never even happened! I was absolutely mortified when his father walked in and then he just lets me leave? I don't understand. Why didn't he try and comfort me! He probably thought I was a terrible kisser and just wanted nothing more from me after that. How embarrassing!
"Josephine!" I hear a banging on my door
"Where in the hell have you been?"
"Mother not now!" I yell holding back tears.
I can't talk to her right now; I'm so upset over Landon that I don't want to talk to anyone! I feel used and betrayed, I let my guard down and now I feel horrible.
"Josephine, you open this door right now!"
"No I will not!" I say not backing down
"Where have you been? Orientation ended hours ago! And you never bring your cell phone anywhere! I was so worried!"
I hate cell phones, it's not like I have anyone to talk to anyway.
"Mother I was just driving around clearing my head! Now please leave me alone!" I say pleading for her to leave.
Finally after hearing footsteps walk away I burst into tears, I hate myself for going with Landon to his house. I should have never gone and none of this would have happened. Tears fall down my cheeks and I feel my lips begin to swell; the pain in my gut is so intense I could throw up. I hate him and how confusing he is! He was a complete asshole to me at first and then all of sudden he wants to get to know me ? For a slight second I actually felt good about him saying that! I actually believed him! But all that got thrown out the window when his father walked in. He doesn't say one word to me on the drive back and then just drops me off without saying bye? My feelings are more than hurt!
The next day arrives and I didn't even realize I had fallen asleep, scrummaging over to look at the clock, I see that I've got forty five minutes to get ready. Should I even go and face Landon? NO! I tell myself and throw the covers over my face. Tears start to fall down my cheeks again as I forcefully wipe them away. I shouldn't let him do this to me, I've already got enough shit on my plate and he is just making it worse.
I walk to the shower and turn on the hot water, as I lean my head back I feel beads of water trickle down my skin; it reminds me of Landon and the way his hands were gliding down my body so gently. The way our lips moved at perfect harmony...the way he held me in his arms...
Oh dammit , why will he not leave my thoughts !
LANDON
Last night fucking sucked, I don't think I slept an hour. My mind couldn't stop racing, I kept thinking about her, I can't stop thinking about her. The way she kissed me and the way her tongue moved with mine, the way her body fit in my hands so perfectly, I mean I'm getting a boner just thinking about it. I really fucked things up though and she probably hates me, I don't know why I'm even wasting my time.
Walking out of my room I can hear my parents talking down stairs, but jump once they see me walking down, god I hate the way they try and act secretive.
"Landon" my mother says, "Your father and I have done some talking... and we would like to meet your girlfriend...what was her name dear?" she says with a smile
What in the hell?
"Josephine?" I say acting shocked. Oh right the girl who's not really my girlfriend and probably hates my guts after yesterday.
"Yes dear, would you like to bring her over to the cookout this weekend?"
"Um sure?" I kick myself for saying that.
"Perfect, make sure you let her know!" she says
Great...fucking great, I just dug myself a big ass hole that I will never get out of. Now I have to show up to orientation and try and make Josie not hate me for kissing her.
Or maybe I'll just not talk to her at all and just tell my parents that we broke up...That sounds like a better idea.
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Desolation
RomanceWhen it came to Josephine , Depression and sadness consumed her everyday life, slowly ripping her to shreds. She was just about to give up until one day her mother found a job at the local hardware store. Her mother hoped by getting Josephine the jo...
