LANDON
On the ride home from orientation my mind travels to a place of unfamiliarity. The girl with blonde frizzy hair consumes my thoughts. As soon as I saw her walk in the door with that hideous blue dress I was furious! Who in the hell dresses like that to work at a hardware store? She was the only one wearing a dress, an ugly dress at that.
When I get home I manage to dodge my parents who are watching a movie together downstairs. They have been together for thirty five years and won't let you forget it. God they make me sick. This day in age I should be thankful to have parents even together, not me though, I really don't give a shit.
When I get upstairs my mind drifts back to Josie.
I was so stupid to make fun of her dress over the intercom. I knew the notebook wasn't hers either, I just saw it sitting on the floor by one of the chairs so I used it as an excuse to talk to her. When her smart mouth told me it wasn't hers, instantly I felt anger rush over my body; so I did what I do best. Be a dick.
Why am I even wasting my time thinking about her? I need to just stop right now but I can't. Having zero control over something scares the shit out of me, much like my depression, the demons of darkness that consume my body and thoughts.
Will tomorrow be better? Probably not, but I'll find a way to talk to her again I'm sure.
I have to.
JOSEPHINE
"Josephine! It's time to get up sweetheart!" I hear my mother call; I hate how she thinks she can be my alarm in the morning. What am I twelve?
I don't even remember falling asleep last night, I actually feel quite rested. Looking up at the ceiling I ponder over thoughts of going back to the hardware store.
Should I go and just face him again ? Im not sure but my body reaches over to look at the clock. 9:15. "Ugh!" I crawl out of bed and rush to the bathroom; today I'm actually going to give myself enough time to get ready, maybe that will make me feel better about this situation.
I turn on the shower and jump right in, I lean my head back to feel the water heat up and rush down my neck. The steam once again feels so relaxing. I breathe in and out hoping it gives me some motivation to survive today. This is the second day in a row I've taken a shower. Maybe I could get use to this?
When I'm done, I towel myself off and walk to the mirror. I stand in horror as I glare at my naked body hoping nobody ever sees me like this. I've always hated the way I looked, and now I hate myself more with all these scars.
As I walk to my closet I hear "Nobody dresses like that to work at a hardware store" Landons words replay in my head
God what a jerk
Instead of dressing in my mother's clothes, today I'm dressing in my own. T shirt, jeans and tennis shoes. I feel more comfortable in this anyway. Tossing my hair up in the usual messy bun, I peak at myself in the mirror one last time and walk down the stairs.
My mother is in the kitchen as I sneak past her. I'm so glad she didn't see me because I know she would have commented on what I was wearing.
The drive there isn't so bad today, I say to myself trying to push past my negative thoughts aside . I'm really only going to show Mr. rude ass that I do know how to fucking dress.
When I get to the parking lot, I take a deep breath and reach for the door handle, suddenly fear strikes me and I feel nauseous again. I can do this; I can walk my ass in there and show him!
Pausing in my tracks, I think to myself why do i even care so much about what he thinks? He really hurt my feelings yesterday and all I want is to go punch him in the face!
After spending entirely too long deciding what to do, I finally make it to the entrance of the store. Seconds after stepping inside I feel a familiar tapping on my shoulder. Annoyed, I turn around and see that it's Landon. Of all people really?
"Um ...Hey." He says
"What?" I snap back
"Do you want to skip this bull shit and go somewhere with me?" He smirks.
I'm actually dumbfounded, is he stupid? All that ink must really be going to his head.
"Why would I want to go anywhere with you? " I scowl
"Because...it will be a hell of a lot more fun than this shit, and do you really want to be here anyway?"
"Yes, actually I do!" I say
I push past him and walk away. He doesn't follow me and turns back around.
As I walk to the back of the store I feel so confused, why was he so mean to me yesterday and then today want to take me somewhere? He probably just wants to secretly kill me; I've watched plenty of murder mysteries to know how that shit works.
When I get to the break room I take a seat by the door hoping nobody sits in the spot next to me. I peak over at the clock and notice that there are only five minutes left until it's ten o'clock.
Where is everyone? I wonder.
I start tapping my finger on the desk as ten minutes go by, still nobody else is here. Did I come on the wrong day? What the hell.
As soon as Landon comes walking in and I roll my eyes. I hope to god he doesn't sit next to me and why are we the only ones here?
"Hey" he says pulling up the seat beside mine...just like I hoped he wouldn't.
He is so annoying, there were at least five other seats to choose from.
"What are you doing?" I say
"I'm sitting down" and smirks
"Well if you don't mind there are other seats available"
"I know, I'm fine thanks.....I see that you changed your clothes" he says smiling leaning over in his seat so that he's closer to my face.
God he pisses me off.
"Yes, I did, but only because these are more comfortable. Not because of your comment yesterday. Which by the way was a pretty dick thing to say"
I turn away feeling more confident in my choice of words. A few minutes later Annie comes marching in the room with a look of disappointment on her face.
"Well guys, since it's just the two of you here and nobody else decided to show up...I'm going to have to reschedule the rest of our orientation to tomorrow. I'm sorry for any inconvenience." She says and walks out the door.
I'm actually at a loss for words, is she serious? Why didn't anyone else come?
Landon looks over at me and smirks
"Well ...what are we going to do with our time now miss Josie?"
Feeling my face light up, i look away embarrassed that he made me blush. I secretly love hearing him call me Josie.
Never mind that, I hate this guy.
"Do you want to take a drive with me?" he says
My subconscious screams to just go with him.
"No. I think not." I say
"Oh come on Josie! It will be fun!"
I smile secretly and turn away.
"Ugh ....Okay fine" I say before I even realize what I have done. How bad could it be? I can go straight home after this...right ?
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Desolation
RomanceWhen it came to Josephine , Depression and sadness consumed her everyday life, slowly ripping her to shreds. She was just about to give up until one day her mother found a job at the local hardware store. Her mother hoped by getting Josephine the jo...
