JOSIE
As I pull up to the hardware store my mind wonders back to Landon and how he just fucking left me yesterday. A tear fills my eye but I forcefully wipe it away as anger rushes over my body. I want to smack him right in the face, but I'll probably just ignore him completely!
Feeling a little more confident in my pep talk i walk towards the back of the store. Finding myself looking around making sure i don't see Landon anywhere. When I make it to the break room i find a seat in the back putting my purse in the seat next to mine, just in case Landon decides to sit there.
Looking over at the clock i count down the minutes until ten o'clock. Why am I always the first one here? I roll my eyes only seconds later to see Landon and a blonde girl come strolling in. My heart stops in mid beat. That's the bitchy girl from the first day of orientation! He's got his arm wrapped around her neck as they both sit down next to each other. I literally want to vomit. Do they know each other? What the fuck!
When they sit down i feel his eyes glance over at me and I quickly look away. I don't know why but I feel jealous that he had his arm around her, and it makes it worse that she's so damn pretty. Why cant i look like that? How is it that he was kissing me yesterday and now has some new bleach bottle blonde on his arm? I literally hate him, what a man whore!
The door swings open and i see that its Annie.
"Alright everyone this is the last day of orientation, so let's make it short and sweet."
She looks less chipper today, which I actually don't mind.
"Um are we not waiting on anyone else?" I ask
Landon overpowers my voice
"What's wrong with who we already have here? I mean it is ten oclock. Do you want to be here all day?"
Little miss bitchy starts to laugh under her breath which infuriates me.
"Im sorry, Who are you?" I look her straight in the eyes.
"Savannah" She says using her jaw to complete the last ah in her name, then takes a whole minute to flip her hair back.
"Okay savan-ah is there something you wanted to say!?"
"Listen here you little cunt, don't come at me with that tone...." she stops when annie stands up in her seat
I look away unamused by her threat and hear landon clear his throat.
What the hell is this bull shit anyway, am i back in highschool? I'm so pissed at him for yesterday and now we have to add this girl in the mix?
As the hour ticks by my thoughts continue on about how much I despise Landon. Who in the hell does he think he is? I literally have no idea why I even decided to come today. Suddenly i feel myself breaking, I don't want to cry, not here in front of them! I just want to know why he kissed me and then acted like it never happened! And today show up with little miss barbie on your arm? What the hell!
When the time is finally up i rush up out of my seat and hurry out the door. I dont think ive ever walked that fast.
"Josie!" I hear from the distance "Josephine wait!"
Of course it's landon, my body turns around before I have the chance to run.
"What do you want?" I snap at him
"Will you just talk to me please?"
"Talk to you about what Landon? how your father walked in on us making out and then you just up and want me to leave?"
"You asked to leave!" he pleads
"Yes but you were supposed to make me stay! Comfort me , make me feel less embarrassed maybe? Instead you just drop me off and not say a fucking word?... Oh and now let's just add savannah to the mix!"
"Savannah is just a friend, she doesn't mean anything to me!" he says
"Okay landon, what do you want from me? Can't you just leave me alone!"
"That's the problem Josie! I can't leave you alone, no matter how hard I try, I just can't!"
"Well i really wish you would! it would do us both some good!" I yell back
"I tried to make you jealous with savannah."
Wait what?
"Why would you want to purposely hurt me?" I say shocked by his answer.
"Because there is something about you that im drawn to...and it scares the absolute shit out of me. The only thing i know how to do when i'm scared is hurt the people around me. It gives me a false sense of happiness, a high if you will."
I don't say anything but just look down at the ground.
"Can you just give me a chance? One chance please? let me show you that i can be someone other than a dick."
"I don't know Landon."
"Please..."
He looks me deep in my eyes possessing my soul and I feel myself giving into him once more. How does he continue to do this to me?
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Desolation
RomansaWhen it came to Josephine , Depression and sadness consumed her everyday life, slowly ripping her to shreds. She was just about to give up until one day her mother found a job at the local hardware store. Her mother hoped by getting Josephine the jo...
