Dilemma

Stuck in my brain

Breathless night with the moon by my side,
Carrying out these feelings I cannot hide,
Losing every bits of everyone on my side,
Just a couple more seconds til I slowly die inside.

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I get sentimental every time I'm alone,
Quiet night as silence only wanders at home,
Earphones in while I listen to endless songs,
If it relieves then its on repeat no matter how long.

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Find out what to do with this silly life,
Play along in the darkness with a knife,
Feel like nobody in the emptiness of night,
No more holes of hope to see the glistening light.

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Tell me what to do to keep you near here,
Hold me close and be here with me dear,
Your voice haunts as its the only thing I hear,
The thought of losing you might be my greatest fear.

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Blinded by the thought of love rather than lust,
Poured my all to you as if you're my last,
All you did was shred me into particles of dust,
And now you cannot rebuild every part of my trust.

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You left me a traumatic scar that has marked,
Heart pours empty as I scream in the dark,
No colors to paint the canvas of my art,
Pitch black ink only drips at the bottom of my heart.

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What have I done to receive this kind of agony?
This woe affected me just like a mental felony,
All these abruptness made me feel so lonely,
Slowly I decided to remove my melancholy.

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Years have passed and you are just a smear,
A little more time to erase you out my dear,
This will ease out both of our atmosphere,
Even if it means that we would both disappear.