Okay, so yesterday on Christmas Eve I had a crisis situation, I had multiple panic attacks, I cried really hard, I also fainted and I really wanted to go the hospital, I was ready to get signed into a mental hospital bc if how much of a mess I was. Instead my parents took me home, bc this happened all in the small hallway of a restaurant we were at for Christmas Eve, my whole family was there, but most of them don't know what happened or why we left that soon.
It was horrible. I thought I had hit rock bottom before, but it was nothing compared to what happened.
I was already in a bad mental state, I also got rejected by my crush and I hate my family, bc I knew they were laughing at me or like talking about me. I honestly don't know how I even survived yesterday, bc I seriously felt like dying. Now today wasn't much better. I'm physically and mentally sick and I'm just exhausted. I'm just so worn out. I swear during summer break I'm gonna go to a mental hospital voluntarily, bc I desperately need it, but I can't do it during school, bc I'll miss too much and I don't wanna lose another year and graduate at age 20, bc I'm already graduating at age 19.
I'm just a mess, a complete and utter mess. I have a headache, my throat hurts, my stomach hurts and mentally I've never been worse. Only a few days ago, I thought 2020 was looking bright and now this. I can't believe I'm going through this. I just I could've never imagined feeling like this was possible and even when it's happening it's hard to believe.
I don't what will happen or how this will affect my updates, but I wanted to tell you guys in case it takes me a while to upload again.
I hope you guys understand. Thank you and I'm sorry.
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Safe place // Minsung (DISCONTINUED)
Fanfiction//DISCONTINUED// In which Jisung changes schools and makes new friends, only this guy whose name is Minho seems cold. Sideships Changlix Woochan Hyunjeongmin (poly relationship) also there will be swearing Also mentions of bullying, violence and hom...
