As I just mentioned, it's finals week! Yay! I have to do a mock trial for my English one tho. Ugh. I don't like presenting. I have stage fright. Fun. It's tomorrow. I should honestly be resting for it. Or at least looking over my lines. Bc witnesses can't use notes. I'm also a direct. So I'm on for the most of it tom. My group is so underprepared. We're prolly gonna fail ngl. This one kid didn't do his work at all. He just messed around w other groups, n expected us to do his work. And when he wasn't taking to his friends or at diff tables, he was at our tables, but working on hw he should've done at home for other classes. Finals r worth 20% of ur grade. If I get a 0 on it, I'll have a 78 in English. U might b like, relax, that's passing. But not in my mind it isn't. I yell at myself I get below a 95 on anything. I don't come from the richest family. If I want to get into good colleges, I will need scholarships. I can't get scholarships if I have 78. I would tell him this so he know where I'm coming from, but telling people that ur on the poor side of the spectrum isn't easy. Especially when ur surrounded by kids whose futures are already laid out before them. They have parents who can afford everything they want. I'm not saying I have it worse than everyone. I'm thankful that I have a roof over my head. But having a single teacher as a parent, whose money is being split among 4 peeps, rent, counseling, and school, it's not the easiest. Again, I know that people can, and do, have it worse than me. I'm just saying that it sucks. Welp, imma go internally scream at myself for opening up to people. I'm tempted to just keep this as a draft. Or publish it on a new acc. That way the peeps who know me irl don't know that's it's me. Cus they know this is my acc. Welp, imma go now fr.
Love is overrated,
a suicidal teen
