So, when I was in second grade, I had a seizure. I have been cleared for over half a decade. No signs, nothing. However, my ADHD doctor hasn't been letting me take any brain altering medication in case I have more. I see where he's coming from, but it's been over half a decade. For the most part, I've been able to keep my ADHD under control. I'm pissed because I can't take antidepressants right now. I'm going in next week, to see if he'll change his mind, but I'm kinda struggling to live. I have been. This isn't something new. And as much as want to take antidepressants, there are somethings that I'm afraid of.
1: we won't be able to find one that works for me
2: we'll end up spending a lot of money trying to find one, so once we do, I won't be able to take them because we can't afford them
3: we find one that works and I become so reliant on it that it becomes the only thing keeping me alive, and for some reason, I'm not able to take it any more(stops being made, money issues, ect)
Nervously,
Excited, yet scared
