Should I Tell

Awakening Into This Hell Called Life

When I awoke for the second time, I knew I would be up longer this time. My muscles were tired, I must have taken some of Moms' muscle relaxers. I felt sick to my stomach and had a huge headache I wish I could sleep again, but I'm too awake and I fear falling asleep again only to find Jake raping me again. I hit the doctor button near my hand and Dr.....what was her name again...Shane? No...Shannon...that's it Dr. Shannon came running in and checked all my vital signs. I asked her how long I had been in there? "I'm afraid you've been in here for 2 weeks, Ally. The pills you took put you into a coma, you're lucky to be alive. Ally, would you like to tell me what happened that made you do it everybody who I've talked to that knows you says you're level headed, intelligent and always happy. Your friend Jake says you're the most beautiful, innocent and happiest girl he knows." I freeze when I hear his name, "Jake has been here!? How many times when!?"
" He visited everyday the first week and all over the weekend until your parents told him he had to give it time and to go back to school your Mom held him as he cried for nearly an hour. He must be a good friend."
"Yes, he's such a good friend..."(yeah he's such a good friend that he would rape me when he was drunk.)
"I don't know why I did it I just felt sad all of the sudden," I said knowing it was a lie but I had to get her off my case.
"Can I go home now."
"Yes as soon as we know your vitals are okay you may go home."
"Okay"
I thought to myself I have to go to school, my parents will try to make me stay home but I know I have to face then eventually. I know I'm going to be known as 'the girl who tried to kill herself' or 'freak' or whatever else. She weeped herself till she past out from hyperventilating.
Darkness spread trough her body again, she wondered will I ever be whole again!?