Should I Tell

4 Weeks After The Incident

It's been two weeks since I left the hospital. Mom and Dad still worry that I'm going to try again so they're constantly asking if I need anything r if I'm okay, but then I remember I brought this upon myself and that it's okay. To help them feel better I told them I wanted to go back to school and I think it did help them a little. But now it's Monday and I'm getting ready I'm wearing a shirt that reads 'Five Finger Death Punch' and black yoga pants that read 'Whatever' on the butt and my converses'. My hair is damp from my amazing hot shower last night but it's okay it makes it look sexy and the makeup I'm wear only looks natural. I'm ready for anything this day has that it's gonna throw at me. I can do it I will.

It's third hour and I'm ready to go home. I swear if lacy looks at me and whispers something in Sens' ear one more time I will scream. Lucky for her the bell rang. Now it's time to go to fourth hour to see Mr. Ledges four Chemistry. I realize I have to go to my locker to get my Chem book. As I'm walking some people give me sad looks others give me fearful looks and others just make strange faces like they're surprised I ignore and push on I ignore the whispers of some mocking my failed suicide attempt. I ignore the year rolling down my cheek until I see Jake at my locker. My stability faulters and I run into a junior named Stacey we both fall down I stay quiet and go to grab my stuff but Stacey she flips out screaming, "That freak touched me I'm gonna get aids!! What the hell you freak! Aren't you that girl who tried to commit suicide but failed!?" She steps closer and zeros in on my face and says, "It is you! You should've done us all a favor and just slit your wrists...you're a waste of space." She spits on me I try to stand up to walk away, but she pushes me down. I realize I'm crying I wipe my eyes and curl my legs into my chest hoping everybody will walk away. That doesn't happen some of the football guys I know Ollie, Breven, Jason and Alex push there way to the front and tell her to leave me alone and then some guy I don't even know steps in front of me and says to Stacey, "Aren't you that slutty cheerleader who choked on so much cum they had to pump your stomach? Do us all a favor as wear a paper bag, okay? Oh and one more thing the next time you want to mess with her come see me and I'll treat you like a guy and we will handle it in a not so nice way. No scram you bitch."
Then he turns to me and the guys come over to me, "Hi I'm Chase Waters, you are?" He held a hand out for me I take it and speak in a soft voice, "I'm Ally, thank you." The bell rings. Jake is still at my locker he looks sad. I freak out at the sight of him. I start breathing fast and hiding behind the Alex and crying. Chase asks me what's wrong. I don't say anything. Alex and the boys ask me what's wrong or if I'm okay still no answer. Breven asks me if I want to be alone I tried to say words but could only say, "Sorry." That being said I walked off.
"Ally wait up!"
I walk a little faster. I feel a hand on my shoulder and I jump and scream and say, "Please Jake no! Not again!" My eyes clamped shut I'm on the ground in a ball. I slowly open my eyes and look up and see it's Chase and I say, "I-I'm sorry."
"Are you okay? Who's Jake and what did he do to you?"
"Yes and n-n-nothing...I-I-I'm fine...," I say sobbing
Chase reaches and pulls me up at first I revolt but he just caresses me and I don't know why but I feel I can trust him with anything including my life and I don't know why but I said to him, "I can't tell you in school."
"Want to ditch with me?"
"Sure...I'll do anything to get outta this hell."
"Alright let's go...you can trust me I'll take you to my car."
He sticks his hand out in a gentlemen like way and I take it. What is it about him that makes me flush and feel certain thrills and makes me do things I have never before like ditching school or telling a complete stranger my biggest secret. I don't know what it is about him but I intend on finding out.