Should I Tell

Nightmares

I'm in the woods, it's a bright beautiful, sunny day. I'm all alone, I like it, it is peaceful. All my demons are gone, I don't have to constantly worry about Jake or my baby I haven't told my parents about yet, or whether Chase is just playing a sick game with me, it's just me and the woods and wildlife. I come to an opening, it's all sand and the river waves crashing onto the shores. It's the same place Chase took me, when I first thought I was pregnant. Then 'BOOM', off in the distance thunder clashes! BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! It so loud it shakes my very bones! It goes dark. Clouds start to swirl around me. I start to run in the woods to find shelter I see a small cabin. I go and knock on the door. No answer. So I continue running rain starts to pour and pour. I get lost, I don't know where I am. I look at me phone, no service. Typical. I run back to the river shore and sit there under a big Oak tree with a hollow center. When it stops raining, I climb out and wring out my now soaked clothes. The suns out again the sky shows a nice baby blue, and then everything slows down and I see tweety birds swirling around my head. I never passed out I just was knocked into a state where I knew what was happening around me but couldn't really process everything as fast, but slowly I gained more and more control. I feel the back of my head its bleeding. I try to sit up but can't, so I try to scream, but I stopped after a harsh slap knocked me side ways. I clamped my eyes shut and curled into a ball not wanting to anger my assaulter anymore. When I feel him pull my pants off though, I start to fight and resist, and then I see him. Jake...he's trying to rape me again.... I resist screaming, "No Jake, please don't do this. You're better than this. You aren't drunk this time...please don't" I had tears running down my face. Then the worst thing that can happen in a nightmare. It's pure terror and you can't move, you can't do anything but scream and watch. I felt everything just like I had the first time. I felt every little thing. I screamed for mercy and then I wake up.
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I jolt awake, panting, moving, and pure terrified. I look at the clock, its 4:30 am. No point in going back to bed, its Friday. Might as well wake up, make myself look descent. Today is the day I'm going to tell my parents, after school. I can't do it alone though so Chase is going to come home with me and help me.

I get up and walk into the bathroom. It's a pretty big bathroom it's a luxury suit bathroom style, like my bedroom. It has a shower and a tub with many features. A nice big sink, and big movie star mirror styles surrounding the sinks. My bedroom is much larger, it has a big Queen size bed, and different style walls. On on side I have it painted blue, that has on my family pictures and memories with them. On the adjacent walk to that I have it painted purple and it has all my friends pictures up there, mainly my boys Alex, Bren, Ollie, Ryan, and of course Jake. I don't really look at that wall anymore. On the next wall it is painted a darker blue but you can't really tell, because I have it covered in my art, awards, letters from Grandmas, birthday cards, and etc. on my other wall it is painted a darker purple and has shelves all up and down it with mementos. Like jewelry boxes, perfume, radio, picture frames, stuffed animals(yes I still have stuffed animals don't judge), and whatever else I felt like putting up there. Then I have a balcony which gives me a view of the forest and pool behind my house and of the beautiful garden. A walk in closet that is very organized. With shoes in rows on one side. Pants and bottoms in the back and shirts and tips on the opposite side. The luxury of having rich parents I guess. My Dad is a scientist who has to travel a lot, but he never misses a birthday, and my Mom she's a interpreter who goes along with my Dad, and translates, also never misses a birthday or celebration of any sort.
After my luxurious shower, went to my closet and decided I was going to look good today. I picked out a sexy matching pearl white bra and underwear set, with a bright blue tank top underneath my white crop top that reads 'Smile', with tight deep blue jeans with a flashy belt buckle, and of course my white converse tennis shoes. I then did my make up I gave myself a natural look, and did a smokey eye with Browns which tend to go with my dark brown eyes. I then did a clear lip gloss, and started on my hair but soon decided my thick long natural curly locks looked good as is. So like the u decided I was going to go and get breakfast so I wrote a note and left it on the counter, and left. I looked at my phone and and saw that it read 5:15, I texted Chase.

Good Morning, are you up?

2 minutes later

Yeah, what's up beautiful? And Good Morning Sunshine

Not much, walking into town, and did I wake you up!?

Alone!? You are walking into town alone!? No, I was up already I'm an early bird when I want to be. Tell me you aren't alone!?

Yes, I am alone, why!?

Sit there, and don't you move I am on my way.

Why!?

It's a sick SICK world out there. I don't need you getting kidnapped! I would go CRAZY!!!!

Okay okay, wait you remember where I live!?

Duh! Enough chatter sit still.

10 minutes later

look behind you.

I turn and bust up laughing. He's in his car sitting there silent as every with this silly face. He gets out and opens my door. Then it begins....

Are you nuts! You were all alone! You could have gone missing!

Boo hoo!

Don't you 'boo hoo' me young lady!

Oh cry me a river.

He pulls the car over and legit pulls me into his lap on the drivers side and sucks on my ear while while intertwining his fingers with mine and saying 'Mine'
I blushed and kissed him on his lips.
Then, he asked, "Where to little missy!?"
I said, "The bakery. I need doughnuts and calories."
He laughed, I tried to move back into the passenger seat, but no sir, he held me tight on his lap and said once again, 'Mine' and then added 'You aren't going anywhere young lady'.

At the bakery I straight pigged out. And he laughed. Me I'm like bitch in pregnant, give preggers lady her space!
He laughed even harder.

By 5:50 we were heading to school just to sit and talk. I started thinking, this situation is very messed up and I don't like it, but maybe this is how God wanted it. I have a human being growing inside of me unwillingly I admit, but it isn't the babies fault...and its dad isn't a complete monster. What he did was wrong, yes, but I could never hate him. I do forgive him, but I still need time to work everything out emotionally. It is then I decided I would have to talk with Jake and that I would tell my parents what happened, but if they called the cops I would deny it all and say it was willing. I didn't want my baby to grow up with its father in prison. I know what it's like to have a father missing a lot granted mines doesn't miss my birthday, but he is gone a lot, but still it sucks badly. As fucked up as this is my baby will have its real father in its life. I explained all of this to Chase as we sat there. He didn't argue. He just sat and listened. I told him I wanted him there when I talked to Jake. I wanted to do it tonight after I told my parents. I would tell Jake at the football game.

6:20
Jake is actually at school early. So I decided we would do this now....