Ben Solo Lives | a Reylo story (Star Wars)

chapter 3

When Rey told me we have to re-enforce the Jedi again, my heart sank to the bottom of my stomach. I don't even know if I am prepared enough or even in the right mental state to train another being. I can't even train myself! Besides, is it even good to restore the Jedi if it didn't really help in the first place?

"Ben, you changed for the better I know you can help me train a few kids." Rey says sounding confident that I completely changed. "Yeah but what if I get dark thoughts in my head. I could change back into the dark Kylo Ren that you don't know. I don't want to put you or anyone else in danger" I said looking at her dark brown eyes.

All she does is sigh and hugs me. "Look, we could start training together. We could make sure we truly understand the force and be more comfortable with each other before training anyone else." I look away from her and start to ponder on what to do. If we do train together then maybe our Dyad force connection could become stronger and we could be unstoppable.

Wait no that's not what I want. If we do train and learn more about our Dyad connection, we could finally be able to control it and learn more about each other.

"I could also help you with your anger management issues" Rey says nonchalantly. My head turns quickly to look right back at her. "What are you talking about? I don't have anger issues!" I said becoming a little irritated.

Rey starts giggling and soon it went into full on laughter. "Ben you literally were punching a tree. People who punch trees are always mad." She says while gripping her abdomen because she was laughing so hard. I roll my eyes and smile at her. I've always seen her so angry at me and I never got to see her genuinely happy.

"Fine, you can teach me how to manage my anger issues." I said while crossing my arms. Rey quickly gains her posture again and grabs her lightsaber. "Oh perfect. Your training starts now."

Meditating for almost four hours was the most worthless training I've ever done. She wanted me to levitate and focus on the force but I couldn't one bit. All I could think about was her. Rey's hair looked amazing with some of her brown lush hair down, and her skin looking so soft and smooth. All I wanted to do was just kiss her again but I know it would not be the right time and place.

After finishing our first training session together, we go back to our rooms to prepare for our journey to Ahch-To.

Since I threw my lightsaber into the ocean I am weaponless... which I think should be a good thing. When we were coming back from our training, Rey was talking about getting a new lightsaber for the both of us and bring my mom and uncles lightsabers to their true home. I don't deserve their lightsabers after everything that happened in the past. I just want to begin a new life as Ben again. I look around my plain but nice room. There is a shelf that is in need of having something on it, and a dresser with some of my shirts and pants. I look out the large window, which shows even more trees and some of the members walking around. I understand why my mother chose this place to be the resistance base. This base is the opposite of what I tried to achieve in the past. My mother was always such an understanding and kind mother and I never was able to truly appreciate the kind of women she was.

I sit down on my bed and stare down at the floor when suddenly I felt the similar bone chilling feeling go down my spine and I look up to see Rey standing up. "Why does this keep happening?" Rey says while running her fingers through the ends of her hair making sure there weren't anymore knots.

"I don't know. Maybe the force wants us to discover something about each other?" I said while looking around trying to figure out if I can see her surroundings again or not. "But the only time we have done this is when we are both emotionally connected or we both are trying to kill each other. this makes no sense" Rey paces back and forth while I still sit on my bed just looking at her.

"Well what were you thinking about just now?" I say with pure interest in my voice and sitting up awaiting for the answer that she will say.

"That is none of your business!" Rey says while turning away and her face slowly turning into a bright pink color. I shake my head and laugh a little and stand up to start walking around my room. "If you don't tell me then we will never figure this dyad forcebond thing." I said looking out the window again hoping Rey will come and stand by me.

"Fine I was thinking about..." she whispered the last part and I assumed she said me but I want to mess with her a little bit. "Hmm? What was that last part?" I say while putting my hand up to my ear pretending I had bad hearing. "you" she says a little louder but I didn't want to end there. "Can you say that one more time?"

*SLAP*

"Hey! You slapped my bad arm" I said while rubbing my right arm. "Alright now your turn. What were you thinking about" Rey says while crossing her arms.

"I was thinking about my mother." I look at her then go back to sit on my bed again and stare down at the floor and the memories of my mother floods my thoughts again. I look back up again and to my surprise Rey disappeared.

I lay down on my bed and start to think of what my mother thought will happen now. I just hope something good comes out of this.