The rain brings out the smell of the earth
And the smell of the earth brings out nostalgia in me
I think about days when my brain wasn't frayed like the ends of a knot
But this effort is never for naught
It comes paired with a sinking in my bones and suddenly my body no longer is my own
I like to feel the chill the rain the smells and the pain
Because when I felt it before I didn't realize i would lose everything I had gained
I revel in moments and memorize them to make them last forever
In doing this I seem to have created an unbreakable tether
From myself into my past
When I memorize things
Forever they do last
Inside the confines of the walls of my brain
I wish the emotional waves were something I could tame
But I cannot
So instead I will enjoy the way the smell of rain brings out the nostalgia in me
Because if I'm really being honest basking in pain is my only true way to be free
That's not to say I'm made to suffer
It's to say that I experience life unlike any other
I accept all the happies and sads and angries and indifferences
I am completely aware of my surroundings and that's just what the difference is
I feel the air I smell the scents
I observe my surroundings and pick up social hints
By that I mean I like to read people
And I like to people watch too
Because as you know yourself you know others
And as they know themselves they know you.
YOU ARE READING
Engrossed in Emotion
PoetryPoems from the soul. These are poems, old and new, that I've written over time. Some are based off heartbreak caused by family, friends, lovers, and myself. Others are about self exploration and self loss. But most are about perception, how the read...
