i can't even remember the last time i posted a life/personal update on here. or any update really. my knack for starting things and not finishing them kicked in with this one. so i decided to try an end of year update. so much has happened this last year of the decade (both good and bad) that i feel like i'm still trying to wrap my head around it all.
2019 was my first full year as a practising lawyer and boy was it one hell of a rollercoaster. i started questioning (still am) if i can actually handle the nine to five life. i think i'd much rather work at my own hours.
my social media presence was pretty much dead for like the first half of the year. i barely even talked to my friends and i felt really bad because one of resolutions was to be a better friend bUT BITCH I THOUGHT. but it's better now, thank the heavens. our gc was insane this week skdkfkf. it was so nice to all be active at the same time and be the complete crackheads that we are.
this year was pretty tough. at some point, it felt like we were being hit left and right by bad news. it sapped a lot of my energy. like can i catch a breath bruh? i wasn't really in a good headspace for a while to be honest. i needed a break and i couldn't seem to get one for a long time. and i felt a bit sick and my migraines made a comeback too. it wasn't pretty.
but it got a bit better. i found my inspiration again and i thought of a spin-off of shades of summer, almost a whole year after i finished writing it. then i got the idea for two more spin-offs so now it's a series based on the four seasons (seasons of love). i just finished wishing for autumn (book 2 in the series) and i've already started on the third one - songs of winter and it'll be out in a couple of days.
oh, i started a proper writing journal to organise my thoughts better and it's really helping a lot. it's nice to have a cohesive system because it inspires me to write more. especially since i have a daily word tracker that motivates me to write more. plus it's really fun for me to work on my journal.
i've also been trying to improve my drawing skills because i've been seriously slacking. i've particularly been working on my portrait drawing as well as landscape painting. it felt like drawing for the first time. i was so rusty, i couldn't even remember how to properly hold a pencil. my lines were shaky, my shading was off, i was smudging shit all over the place 😭
but hey i got a pretty good portrait that i'm quite proud of. i'm working on a new one and hoping to get it done before the new year. that would be a christmas miracle for me.
i do have a few good pictures of the completed piece.
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the longer i stare at it though, the weirder it looks to me. it's like my eyes are zoning in on even the littlest mistakes and i'm itching to just put an eraser to everything. please don't ask me what the letters in the background mean. it was written on the wall in the reference photo i used, so i incorporated it because i didn't want so much negative space.
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i only started on this one recently. it's been days since i last touched it ngl. i could've completed it by now except i'm such a lazy person. the lines look very harsh now that i see it again (especially on the nose and lips). i might have to fix that or it will end up looking very unnatural. yay.
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also in "i should have finished this by now if i wasn't such a fucking procrastinator - the series" is this piece i'm pretty sure i started working on at the beginning of the year but completely disregarded after. it's not entirely my fault because work was kind of taking over my life at the time and i just totally forgot about it for months. now i have no excuse but i can't even find the reference photo anymore so welp.
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i did this on one of my white t-shirts and nearly jumped out my window when i accidentally painted over the shape of her buns that i'd drawn. i ended up using white paint to try to mask it but it still looked weird af so i hid it with the camera angle. let's not even talk about the mistake i made with the ears. couldn't even fix that.
anywho, it's all going better than i imagined art wise. i need to stock up on art supplies though. i've used up almost all my oil paints and my acrylics are all finished. and i need more pencils and colour pencils too.
i also ate good this year. spoilt myself rotten with delicious desserts (rip my bank account and dentition). imma need to see my dentist from all the sweets i had fam. it was all part of my treat myself better resolution this year. though it became more of a treat my sweet tooth better type thing.
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just some of my food-scapades this year sksksk. no "summer bod" 2019 and i didn't even give a damn. but woowww i need to eat healthier omg.
i'm already tired of talking about myself, jesus. summary; i had my ups and downs and i'm all the wiser for it, still growing up and finding myself.
anyway, thank you for coming to my messy midnight ted talk. happy holidays, butterflies!
