I Know You Can't Speak

Always Keep Faith.

"It's a girl!" The doctor said excitedly as she turned the screen around to us. Lawrence's smile grew a mile wide and I sat there in shock as I was looking at my daughter on the screen. Tears welled up in my eyes as I finally realized what the doctor had said.

"That's my daughter?" I asked smiling as the doctor happily nodded her head.

"Yes it is. She's very active right now too" she showed us as we watched her flipping and moving around on the screen. "She had her legs crossed at first. We almost weren't gonna be able to tell what she was." The doctor laughed and explained.

"She must be difficult, just like her father" I said cracking a fake laugh and smile as Lawrence glanced at me.

"Well congrats to you two. I'll be right back with your ultrasounds" the doctor told us as she left the room.

"Jas I'm so happy" Lawrence said as he walked over to me and touched my stomach.

"Don't fucking touch me!" I snapped at him. I had been being fake cordial the whole time the doctor was in the room but as soon as she left out, I let him have it.

"You got some nerve coming up here to my appointment!" I snapped.

"Oh it's your appointment now? Why you still tripping?! Jas I told you she was lying. Those ain't my fucking babies! She told me she was on birth control" he said with a straight face. I couldn't tell if he was lying or telling the truth but I wasn't about to try and figure it out.

"Yeah it's my appointment! You're not welcomed here. And I don't give a fuck. Don't touch me."

It had been weeks since the incident with Mercedes and this was my first time seeing Lawrence since then. I forgot that I had told him the day to find out what we were having and here he was, popping up.

"I don't even know why you're here and I advise you to get the fuck out of my face before I punch you in yours!" I snapped at him as the doctor came back in.

"Congrats on your babygirl again" She said as she handed me my ultrasounds, smiled back to my fake smile and walked out. Lawrence walked over to me, trying to see the ultrasound and take one out of my hand.

"So I can't have one?" He asked with a serious expression on his face. I just stared at him before walking out of the room with him not too far behind. Once outside, he followed me to my car.

"Why are you following me?"

"Because how long are you going to ignore me. I said those wasn't my kids yo!"

"You think I give a fuck about anything you said?" I asked him as I stared at him.

"I know you don't but I'm serious Jasmine! I did all that to get you back do you seriously think I'd fuck it up for her?

"Lawrence I don't know what you'd do" I said as I got in my car And pulled off leaving him standing there.

***3 months later***

I had to work and on my way, I felt like something was just completely off. I overslept, woke up with swollen feet, my car wouldn't start which made me late for work and when I got to work, the first person I saw was Mercedes. I saw her watching me but paid her no mind as I clocked in and started my day. I was stocking the shelves when I felt somebody bump me.

"Oh my bad" Mercedes said as she walked past me. In her car were a bunch of baby items.

"I'm just so happy to be shopping for my babies" she said to no one in particular as she came back by me, bumping me again.

"Oh my bad" she said again. Holding my composure, I said nothing as I exited the aisle with my blood boiling. Just as I was walking to the backroom, I heard a bunch of noise coming from the aisle where I had just been. When I went to see what the commotion was, Mercedes had knocked over everything that I had just stocked.

"Oops" she said smirking when she saw my face and bumped me again.

"Bitch bump me one more time and you're gonna be on the floor with the rest of this shit!"

"Jasmine you couldn't bust a grape in a fruit fight. I will dog walk your ass all over this fucking store" Mercedes voiced as she got in my face. 

"Try me" I said as I stepped closer. I had begun to see black and pregnant or not, I was fed up.

"Girl I'm not fighting you! You forgot, we both pregnant? By your fiancé?" She bellowed, laughing in my face. The next thing I knew, I was being pulled off of her.

"Jasmine what is going on? What are you doing! You're pregnant!" My co-worker yelled at me as he picked me up off of her. Customers were looking in shock as Mercedes hopped up off the floor, blood leaking from her nose.

"I wanna press charges!" She screamed. "Call the cops! This lady attacked me! she yelled  frantically while holding her nose to catch the blood from falling.

"Bitch you came to my job, picked a fight with me and now you wanna call the cops!" I shouted.

"Security, escort this woman out." My boss said pointing to Mercedes. "Jasmine, my office, NOW!" My manager yelled at me. I walked into her office and sat in the chair as she came in behind me and closed the door.

"Jasmine that's unlike you what was that about?" My supervisor and I had become really acquainted since she had hired me and she knew that I had completely stepped out of character.

"It's a long story. But she came in here, antagonizing me and I over reacted. If you want to fire me, I completely understand" I said whole heartedly but hoping that wasn't the decision she was going to make.

"I know that's not you. I also know, that sometimes, you just gotta handle your business. I'm not going to fire you, but I will send you home for the day and review the cameras and situation. I'll give you a call tomorrow" she told me as she sat in her chair. "Go get some rest." Once I left my job, I was so irate, I called Deja as I began to tell her what happened. She told me to come to her house and when I got there, Myles was walking out.

"Imma beat your daughter's ass everytime I see her!" I snapped at him.

"Deja told me what happened. I'm so sorry Jasmine" he said to me. "All of this is my fault"

"It is your fault! And she's holding on to what you did and acting like it's my fault!" I yelled as I burst into tears. Just then, I felt something warm falling down my legs. I looked down and underneath me was a puddle of water.

"Oh my goodness, my water just broke!" I said as I began to panic.

"Uhh, okay, calm down. I'm going to take you to the hospital!" Myles told me. He ran inside to get Deja and the next thing I know we're on our way to the hospital.

3:35 the next morning, my daughter was born. The labor was a pain in my ass literally, but seeing my daughter made it all worth it. I instantly fell in love. She was the cutest curly haired baby I had ever laid eyes on and she was mine.

"Jas she's adorable! What you gonna name her?" Aiyana asked me the next day when she came to the hospital to see her.

"I don't know. I think I wanna name her Faith"

"Why Faith?" She asked me curiously.

"Because, I don't have Faith in much of anything, but I feel like my daughter will bring me the happiness I've been needing" I told her. "I believe God sent her to me for a reason" I continued.

"Oh yeah and what reason is that?"

"To remind me to have Faith even in bad situations. To let me know that he won't put me through anything I can't handle."

"Ouu I like that, my god daughter Faith." she said excitedly and as I looked down at my babygirl in my arms, I began to get excited too...