[ON HOLD] We're Not Meant To Be Together (Logan Paul)

Chapter 21

Logan's pov.

i drive home with a broken heart thinking what just happened. i lost my loved one just in a moment.

"im done with you, logan. we're breaking up, im leaving team maverick."

her words playing on my mind like a broken radio. honestly, i dont mind her leaving team maverick, but me? i love her. and i know i messed up. but i didn't think it could be this critical.. she was right when she said there's something wrong with jenny.

i pull over once i made it home. i look over to my wristwatch. 9pm. everyone is still up, probably. i got out from the car and walk into the house.

"Logan! where've you been? have you found alexa?" spencer comes up to me and shot me with questions.
"did she say something to you?" mike asks. "is she leaving us?"

"can you guys shut the fuck up? leave me alone, you fucks." i walk through them. im tired of this. "she broke up with me, she's in calabasas, she's leaving team maverick. happy?"

i walk upstairs and close the door. i flopped myself on the bed and something goes wrong.

my heartbeat raises, i cant breath properly. everything starts to spin around me. with the last of my energy left,

"MIKE!" i shout and the last thing i knew,

i blacked out.

-

Alexandra's pov.

i lay down in the middle of the room, looking up to the ceiling. lost my job, lost my loved one. i might be losing my sanity later. for sure.

"alexa! ALEXA!" jake crashed into the room with his unzipped hoodie.
"what?" i looked to him, head to toe. what the fuck wrong with this man?
"l-logan. h-he collapsed due to stress." my whole body loses its energy. i felt so weak. why? logan? collapsed?
"w-where is he?" my voice cracks.

"he's in the hospital right now." jake looks to me worryingly. he knew even though we just fought, i still love logan. i will always do. "im going there. are you coming with me?"
"yeah." i nod, getting up from the floor.

please. stay awake.

-

once i get off from the car, i run inside the building, towards the receptionist. still catching my breath,

"l-logan alexander paul. is he registered yet?"
"logan paul. please wait, miss." the nurse going on the monitor, typing something. jake finally made his way to me, catching his breath.
"im here. dont worry.." jake holds my hand.

"Room 430 B, level 4." the receptionist pointed to the elevator.
"thank you." jake drags me to the elevator. we get in and quickly press the button to level 4.

"he's gonna be okay. i promise you." jake comforts me.
"i dont know, jake."

the elevator stopped at level 4. jake and i run along the corridor, trying to find the room. 429 B, 430 A. room 430 B! suddenly, both of us were pulled to the side. spencer was the one pulled me.

he pointed to the glass and i see logan. unconscious, lifeless. depending on an oxygen tank to breath.

i hug spencer quickly. grabbing to his clothes, trying to get myself together. he hugged me back, letting me break down in his hold.

"this is all my fault. if i'd never chose to be with him, this wouldn't be happening." i claim between my sobs.
"no, alexa. please dont say that. you're the most beautiful thing ever happened to logan. to us, team maverick." spencer comforts me.
"he's gonna be okay. trust me." mike patted my shoulder.

-

> few days laterrrr

Alexandra's pov.

"everything's gonna be okay. mike said there's no problem with him. he just too drained that day."

taking a deep breath, i twisted the doorknob and walk into the room.

"logan?"i called him as i saw him looking outside the window.
"alexa?" he turns to me. happiness could be seen from his eyes. suddenly, i feel something's wrong.

i back up as he drew closer to me. i feel anxious with every of his actions.

"alexa." he stops after notices me trying to back away. "you hate me, right? is that why you're keeping your distance?" his expression changes.

i want to explain so bad, but my mouth nor my mind works. taking a deep breath, i draw closer to him, trying to to hug it out. but, he pushes me away softly before i do so.

"you dont have to. maybe we're not meant to be."
"l-logan. i-"
"no. i deserve this. after all i've ever done to you which is just breaking your heart repeatedly." he looked down to his feet.
"but, you-"
"just leave me, alexa. you're hurting yourself." he turns his back to me. im not going to leave him. i missed him.

"i said, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY ROOM!" he shouts. seconds later, he broke down, crying. he was hurt. "n-no. i-i dont want to feel h-hurt anymore. g-get out. please."

i stand still holding up my tears. logan is in the lowest point he could ever been.

"i-i love you." i walk out. not because of my ego. its just- i felt wrong being there knowing i was the one who made him this way. i chose to be with him and eventually hurting him.

closing the door behind me, jake already set his eyes on me. probably waiting for my reaction. avoiding eye contact, i look down, standing in front of the door, facing him.

"jake, send me home."
"are you sure, alexa? logan said-" he draw closer to me.
"logan said what?! that im just a depressed shit who got tons of painkiller back at my house?!" i push him. trying to relax, silence fills the space. "j-just take me home. no questions. im tired of everything."