𝑰 𝑪𝒂𝒏 𝑳𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒏 𝑻𝒐 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝑴𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒚

𝐃𝐚𝐲 6 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 3: 𝐚 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐬𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐤

I sat on the floor against my bed holding onto my paxil. I crawled my way to the bathroom, pulling myself up onto the sink. Opening my bottle and reached for one, drinking over half my cup of coffee not caring about how it burned.

I grabbed the clothes I had laid out and sat onto the floor, slowly putting on my underwear, shutting and locking the door after I heard the apartment door open and shut.

I got dressed as fast as I could with shaky hands, after drying my hair with the towel I stood up groaning. I took a deep breath and sighed, emptying my cup into the sink and walking out of the bathroom. Clenching the cup in my hand I walked out of my room, seeing Jay unpacking yet another bag. I dropped my cup and ran towards him, he looked up seeing me and dropped the bag.

I hugged him, the force knocking him back into the door. I began crying, my body began shaking again and he wrapped his arms around me, rubbing my head softly

" Liz w- what happened? I wasn't even gone for 20 minutes..."

" I-- I can't... I can't be here.. I wanna go home"

" Liz calm down... What happened?"

I pulled back and he grabbed my face looking at me, concern filled his eyes as he stared at me. I just looked up at him, burring my face in his chest. Gripping onto his jacket for dear life

" Liz... What's wrong?"

" I don't wanna be here!"

He sighed picking me up. I kept my face in his jacket, hiding away like a child. After being set down I looked up at him, he brushed his fingers through my hair and I looked into his eyes

" Liz, what happened? Was it your family?"

" No..."

" Elli?"

" No..."

" Then who?"

I looked up at him. Clenching my jaw repeatedly, not wanting to say. I began shaking again and he pulled me closer

" Liz, I can't help you if you don't tell me.."

I shook my head burring my face into his neck. Staring down the hallway where my room was, he rocked me back and fourth softly

" Liz.."

" It was Mark..."

" Mark? What'd he do?"

" He.. hurt me.."

Jay grabbed my face softly looking at me, checking my body for any marks and I shook my head at him. Still crying, he looked up at me grabbing my face concerned. Slowly taking his jacket off and throwing it over me after glancing at my neck

" Was he the one who hurt you before? Was Mark... Your ex?"

I nodded my head, wiping my face. Jay grabbed my hands and held them in his, he stared at me. His light blue eyes glistened

" Liz.. Why didn't you say anything?"

" He scares me Jay... For the past two years he's been hurting me, and-- and threatening me.. Jay, he's raped me... I- I'm weak... I-- I couldn't stop him he-

" No Liz... You're not, you're amazing.. And strong, you shouldn't doubt yourself in any way.. you're beautiful Liz"

I looked up at him, hugging him. He re-tucked his jacket around me and hugged me back, I leaned my face onto his shoulder and closed my eyes.

" Liz you're awesome.. You know that?"

I laughed. Looking up at the clock I looked back at Jay, realizing we only had 38 minutes to make him something