My Dissolution

Disillusionment

Again i was disillusioned by who I am to you.

Another day I feel my heart break,

and wonder what it is you feel for me.

I have fallen deep and

I keep trying to stay afloat.

I want to tell you how I feel,

but it is more than I can cope.

If you reject me I will fall far,

Will I be able to stay afloat?

I can not pull myself out of your dream.

It is my disillusion that you feel the same way.

I know not what there is in store for us but

Someday I hope it will be clear.

I have decided to pull myself out of my misery

before I try to pull anyone into my life.

I keep getting set up for too many disappointments,

and unrequited feelings.

It makes me feel more empty

to know that I have connections

not as deep as I perceived them to be.

I need to be honest with myself

and step out of my dreamy bubble.

The world out there is brutal

and I need to learn to care for myself.