Thebluhart

Chapter 14- Toxic

"What do you wanna talk about?" I asked him as soon as I got into the car

"About us, why you blocked me?" He asked me

"You really called me to talk to you about something I literally answered over the phone?" I asked him

"Nah cause that shit don't make no sense, how the fuck am I toxic?" He asked me

"YOU BULLSHITTING RIGHT? YOU LITERALLY BROUGHT ME A FUCKING GIFT AND THOUGHT THAT WOULD FIX EVERYTHING!" I shouted

"YO LOWER YO VOICE WHEN YOU TALKING TO ME!" He yelled back

Typical nigga answer

"Whatever, goodbye" I reached for the door but he pulled me back

"We not done talking" He told me

"But I'm done talking to you so goodbye" I replied

"I said we not done yet" he said

"Like I said, I'm done talking to you. Honestly Chad what are we doing? What are you doing with me? I'm 18 and you're in your 20's. Maybe we need a break or something" I told him

"WE DON'T NEED SHIT! IM OLDER THAN YOU, SO FUCKING WHAT? YOU MY GIRL AND THAT'S IT" He shouted

"I hate it here." I said under my breath

"What you said?" He asked me

"Nothing, I didn't say anything." I replied

"Oh alright, you miss me?" He asked

Very much toxic!

"Yeah I do but it's hard Chad, you need to work on your temper because when you get mad, you get violent and that's scary" I told him

"Yeah I know and I'ma fix that. I care about you, Aliza and if that mean going to them white people for my problems then so be it"

I didn't say anything I just looked at him and stared for a minute, I knew I shouldn't have believed him but when you want something to work you fight for it.

"Enough said, I gotta go" I told him

"Oh yeah and you not stripping no more, anything you need come ask me for it" he stated

You got 10 thousand?

"I need 10 thousand for my mom's surgery, hence the word "need". I almost have it all but-" I told him

"Whatever left over, I'll give it to you" He told me

"7,200" I replied

"Alright you'll have it by the end of this week" he said

That easy? Free money?

See the thing about depending on somebody is that you have to wait for them and they basically control what happens to you financially.

At the time I thought I had this rich, big dick having ass nigga who could care less about having 100 dollars in his pocket, to financially take care of me but bitch I was wrong.

Never turn down money but still have your own cash flow...stupid mistake.

He kissed me and I got out the car, yeah I was still kind of mad with him but my mom was going to get her surgery soon.

I got into the house and just laid on my bed, just thinking about everything.

I thought about what the future will be like now that my mom will be able to take care of herself.

I was excited because this was going to be life changing.

The next morning at school
I was sitting in the cafeteria, alone of course because Gravity still wasn't talking to me. Plus I wasn't making any friends because my diary made everybody distance their self from the "stripper" how annoying.
I was pushing the soggy, wet eggs that sat on my plate around when Josiah took a seat in front of me.
Ima keep it real it was kind of good to see his face because he was such good company. He was a vibe you couldn't get back even if you paid for it.