Billie and Brandon: The way we've always been

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I slowly opened my eyes as the setting sun shone through the curtains
hmm
We must have fallen asleep

I opened my eyes and saw that the other side of my bed was empty
I looked up and saw que pulling up his pants
He spotted that i was awake and smiled at me

"Hey baby, you had a long nap" he said
"Did you not sleep" i asked
"yeah i did but i've been awake for an hour" he replied pulling his shirt over his head

i looked at my phone to see the time was 6:23pm
Shit i slept for 3 hours, i am not gonna sleep easy tonight

I realised that que wasn't laying next to me and i wondered why he was getting dressed

"I thought you were staying the night tonight" i asked
"i know i was, but i completely forgot that i had this party thing tonight with some of the twins friends" he said

"Oh" i said letting my eyes drop to the ground
"baby i'm sorry.." he said climbing onto the bed  lying next to me
"no don't worry about it" i lied cuddling up to his side

"But i got 5 minutes till i have to leave" he smirked
My phone got a text so i checked it.
It was johnny from earth gang, just confirming things for when earthgang come on tour with me in February.

"Promise me you won't fuck one of them on tour" brandon blurted out
"Dude what the fuck" i chuckled
"I'm not fucking anyone till march when i see you again" i looked up at him
He leaned into my lips and softly kissed them

"Remember not to get too close to stars like that, as they're never gonna give you love like ours" he said
I looked back up to him in awe
Sometimes he would just say the craziest cutest shit ever

"Aight shit baby i gotta leave imma be late" he said in a hurry all of a sudden
"Damn what's the hurry" i asked sitting up
"I gotta be there at 7" he said

I just wished he could stay here tonight
I almost said stay but i didn't want him to feel like i was holding him back.

I just knew he was gonna go out and drink and get high
Die by mistake

"Bye mamas" he said kissing my head
"Bye" i half smiled
"I love you" he said walking out the door in a rush
"I love you too, text me when you get there" i yelled
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A few hours had passed since Sev left. I hadn't gotten a text from him yet
deep down i was worrying about him but i brushed it off as he had arrived at the party and had forgotten.
I didn't want to sound paranoid or anything.

I wasn't normally like this.
I lay down in my bed and tried to go to sleep. But i couldn't stop worrying about him.

It was one of those nights that you feel bad about everything. I realised that i didn't even know where he went.
I should know he should have told me.

It was an extra cold night tonight. I just didn't want to be alone. I wish he was here so i could cuddle up to him.

My mind wondered to Jah. Especially how jenesis had lost him.
I miss him i can't imagine how she would feel.
Loosing people i love is one of my worst fears

I couldn't imagine getting a call from his mom saying he was in a car accident because he was drinking or high
That's why i wish he would stop

My vision started to blur as that thought came to mind
It took me back to when i told him something

"I cant love someone because it would break me."
"If your gonna die, not by mistake"
"I know, and that's why i'm going to try quit. For you everything, anything"

It made me think of the day i met him.
He seemed so raw and precious from loosing vamp
It made me think that i wanted to protect him
But then if something happened to him tonight then i would never get to

I quickly sat up and turned my light on grabbing my phone
It was 12:08am

I was full on crying now

I scrolled through my contacts and called Ques number
At this point i didn't care if i sounded paranoid
I just needed to see him

It rang and rang
"Hurry pick up you asshole, i'm worried " i mumbled
Finally on the last call he picked up.

"Baby! What's up?" He yelled
I tried my hardest to not sound like i was crying but he heard it
"Hey bil, mamas, why are you crying?" he asked sounding worried
It sounded like he had sobered up real quick
"I-I'm really worried about yo-ou"i said
"tell m-me you'll come h-home" i cried

"yeah hey now don't cry i'm coming now" he said
"p-please don't drive here" i said
"i'm not going to. im ordering an uber right now" he said
"i will be there in 15 minutes baby, okay, don't worry" he said

just hearing his voice soothed me
"I'm sorry for ruining your night" i said
"No no you didn't this party was shit anyway" he said
"You just didn't text me and i was so worried" i said
"Oh shit billie i'm so sorry i just completely forgot" he apologised
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I waited for what felt like years was only 20 minutes until i got a text from que letting me know he was here. He didn't knock because it was late

I crept out to the front door and opened it
His smile dropped quickly as he saw how much of a mess i was
He wrapped his arms around me and my hands went around his back

Seeing him and feeling him made all my worries go away
I loved him so much
We went into my room and he got into just his boxers.
He then climbed into bed right after me and came up behind me spooning me

Immediate warmth came over my body as he kissed my shoulder and wrapped his arms around my torso

"i'm sorry for worrying you" he said
"I love you" was all i responded with
"Love you too" he said 

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Lol hi long time no see
This was Ilomilo inspired
RIP TO B N Q
BUT D N Q THO