Sensitive Wolf

7.

On the way back to my room I still thought about the look of my brother.

My brother worried seldom about anything, so for him to be bothered by something spoke volumes.

My insecurities used this opportunity to voice their opinions.

What if my bother was worried about Levin's family accepting me?
What if they would be as disappointed in me as my family and pack?
And even worse, what if Levin would reject me for being weak?

I felt myself being sucked into this vicious circle of thinking.

I had not even noticed that we had already arrived at my door.

"Sophia?", Levin's unsure voice brought me back to the present and I shook my head in order to get rid of these unheahlty thoughts.

However, Levin knew that something was wrong and once inside my room he tightened his hold on me and tugged me towards him.

I was now in his embrace and let myself sink into my mate.

Never had I felt more safe than in his arms.

I took deep breaths of his fresh cookie scent and marveled at how good it felt to get hugged.

"Before you start thinking about anything that might be wrong with you, let me assure you that you're perfect.", Levin's husky voice whispered into my ear and I stiffened in his embrace.

Was it because of the mate bond that Levin was aware of my train of thoughts?

"Back in the Alpha training camp your brother and I shared a room,", Levin then started to tell me and I relaxed into his embrace again.

I had no idea why he was telling me this now, but I was curious where it would lead to.

"Honestly I was scared shitless when I realized that I had to share a room with your brother, future Alpha of the Mercy pack, when I knew that our packs hated each other", Levin's voice sounded amused as if he was fond of the memory.

"The first time I saw Silas I was sure that he was plotting on how to make my life miserable. It was just his brooding look and cold eyes. But as soon as he realized who I was and that I was going to share a room with him he opened up and even smiled at me."

I chuckled because I could totally imagine my brother being like Levin just described.

My brother looked taugh, but once you got to know him and did not get on his bad side, he was a softie.

"In this last year he became my best friend even before he saved my life."

As Levin mentioned this I tightened my grip on him, not wanting to think about his almost death.

His lips were now close to my ear. 

"It was only natural that we discussed our life at home and our family. I soon realized how much Silas loathed his parents and pack or rather what they believed in. Silas is always so confident, but when I talked about my family and pack I saw this deep longing to be part of something like this."

My heart had accelerated during Levin's story, because while I had known that Silas did not really like it here in the Mercy pack, I had no idea that he actually longed for something else.

Silas had always been respected and even loved, not only by my parents but also by the pack members. I was aware of the differences in his beliefs and theirs, but I always thought he saw the fault in that in our parents' leadership and not in the pack members themselves. However, when Levin just mentioned Silas' longing of wanting to be part of a pack just like Levin's, I realized for the first time that Silas had felt out of place his whole life too.