Sensitive Wolf

28.

Sophia

"Are you ready to meet your mate?", Kellan wanted to know as we entered the territory of the Crescent Moon pack with his car.

I shook my head, feeling my anxiety sky rocketing and my heart beat accelerate. I had had several days to prepare myself for this day, but no matter how often I had told myself that Nathan was my mate and that he already felt a deep connection to me I was still nervous and jumpy.

"Hey,", Kellan gently put a hand on my leg and I ceased to bounce it.

"I promise you, everything's going to turn out okay!"

I took a deep breath and let his soothing words wash over me.

"And if not you can always stay with me!", he added and I smiled gently at him.

"Thank you Kellan! For everything!"

Kellan had no idea how much he had helped me in the last few days. No matter what I had needed he had provided it. I had rarely come across a more selfless person than him.

And then yesterday when I had experienced a full blown panic attack caused by yet another set of worries about my mate not wanting me, Kellan had been the one who had looked after me. He had made me voice my worries out loud and we had then talked each one of my concerns over like Dr. Clairence would had done. 

I had no idea if witchers had mates, but his one would be very lucky.

Kellan just shrugged his shoulders in answer to my gratitute and I had to giggle when I realized that he was embarrassed.

His dark blue eyes locked with mine and he said, "That's how you want to play it? Then I'm just going to remind you about the talk we had yesterday morning."

Instantly my cheeks flushed and Kellan chuckled satisfied at his accomplishment. 

During my time in the Full Moon pack I had thought a lot about Nathan, every moment it had felt, and I had wondered about his experience with women. I knew that in the werewolf world you usually saved yourself for your mate, but I had known from Dr. Clairence that in the human world life was different. Just the thought of Nathan with someone else had made me unbelievably jealous, but I had also known that there was a big possibility that he had already slept with someone else. And because he had been brought up in the human world and could not had been aware about the customs in the werewolf world I could not hold it against him. However, I needed someone who had experience in this topic to decide if I as a virgin should be worried about Nathan's possible experiences or not.

So yesterday I had mustered up all my courage and had asked Kellan about it. He as a witcher did not necessary have a mate so I had been sure that Kellan had experience. Kellan had instantly noticed that I had been embarrassed and had smirkingly said, "Spit it out."

I had taken a deep breath and did just that. "I...I was just worried about Nathan being sexually experienced and me...not."

Kellan's eyes had widened and sheepishly he had rubbed the back of his neck.

"You don't have to worry about that Sophia! If you trust Nathan enough to gift him with your virginity he would be stupid not to cherish that!", he had finally said and I could see the sincerity in his voice.

"Furthermore it's fun to discover together what you like and what you don't. Nobody gets it right the first time."

His words had eased my worries greatly.

The junction to the orphanage brought me back to the present and I asked Kellan if he could take a right turn here.

He looked questioningly at me, but followed my request. When Kellan noticed the kids playing in the garden I knew he understood.