Sensitive Wolf

36.

"You okay?", Nathan asked from behind me and wrapped his strong arms around me.

Instantly I leaned into his body and relaxed. I felt conflicted, because on the one side I missed the others and especially the kids, but on the other side I wanted to stay here in this beach cottage with Nathan forever.

It had been a wonderful, if not the best, week of my life and I felt torn in two just thining about leaving our little bubble.

My eyes gazed over the ocean, where Nathan had taught me how to swim and where we had water fights. My cheeks blushed just thining about what we had also done in the ocean, but I could not deny how happy those memories made me.

"Keep thinking like that and we'll never leave.", Nathan's husky voice whispered into my ear and a full body shiver made its way through my body.

Since Nathan had marked me I felt even more attracted and in tune with him. The tingles when he was touching me now where even more intense than they had been before and I craved his touch and attention more than my next breath.

At first these new sensations had made me feel a bit uncomfortable, because I had been overwhelmed at how addicted I had become to Nathan, but I had soon realized that it had not been different to Nathan. He had embraced these new sensations and feelings so I had decided to be brave as well.

I had wondered why I struggled to accept all these new feelings, but luckily Nathan had known what was bothering me and had addressed the issue. I had had no idea where to start as I had not wanted to hurt Nathan's feelings, but when he had told me that I could tell him anything I had given in and confided my struggles in him. Fortunately, Nathan had not been bothered by my concerns, on the contrary, he had made me see that it was and should be normal for me to have apprehension as my parents had exploited their "bond" with me. Everything had then made much more sense and it had been easy for me the accept all these new sensations and feelings, because I just knew it in my gut that Nathan would never hurt me intentionally.

I sighed taking one last look at the cottage, treassuring all the memories I had made here, all the laughter, all the deep talks that had shown me that Nathan really was my soul mate, all the times spent in front of the fire place or on the porch looking at the ocean and all the times Nathan had showed me again and again how much he loved me. 

"I promise you, baby, we'll come back."

I turned around in Nathan's arms, so that I could look him directly into his beautiful scotch coloures eyes and responded, "I'm going to miss the cottage, but everything that made it so special I'm taking with me."

 Nathan's eyes darkened and his lips drew into a soft smile. "Have I told you today, how much I love you?"

I giggled delighted and kissed his soft lips. "I'll neer grow tired of hearing you say that."

I pecked his lips once more, before I drew back, took one last look at the cottage and got in the car.

There had only been one day I wished would had never happened, but I had known this day would come sooner than I had wanted.

On the morning after Nathan and I had marked each other, he had woken me up with hungry kisses. I had responded with the same vigor, wanting my mate again even after all the previous love making. I had not been thinking straight as my brain had been too consumed with lust, the electrifiying touch of my mate and the hunger for more. So when Nathan had turned me around to pepper my back with kisses, I had not realized how everything would take a turn for the worse.

I had felt him freeze and through our new developed bond I could exactly tell how horrified Nathan had been when he had seen my scars.

It had taken a whole day to convince Nathan that he could not do anything, because the scars were in the past. I had been able to tell that Nathan and his wolf had wanted blood, preferably the blood of my father as he had carried out the whip lashes. At night he had finally calmed down and Nathan had feverly promised me that nothing like this would ever happen again, neither to me nor to other werewolves. I had cried at his words, because not only had he promised me to always take care of me, but my mate had shown me again how great of an Alpha he was going to become.