Adopted by 5 Seconds of Summer

Eleven

***CONTAINS SELF-HARMING***
School.
We all hate it, but we gotta go.
I entered the school and I immediately got shoved up against that wall. That has been going on since I started school, which has been two days. I feel flattered.

I only have a few people in this school who like me, for me. The other thousand people hate my guts. But who cares cause I got people who like me and support me. Usually I get shit thrown at me and people calling me fat and I try not to let it get to me.

People on the Internet look up to me for being confident and I can't let a few comments get to me. Even though it really hurts, I try not to listen to it. The other day I was sitting at lunch by myself (my friends were absent that day) and this boy asked me if I was going to eat my apple. I said yes and his friend said, "Yeah, she needs it cause she's so fat." That hurt, a lot.

I really wanted to cry but I didn't. Those are the comments that get to me. I've been through this before, but I was younger and I didn't understand that stuff. But now I'm older and I clearly understand it now.
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"Dude I dare you to do it. C'mon there's no one to protect her all her friends are gone just do it." I heard one of the populars whisper. They came up to me and started throwing food at me. I quickly jumped up and looked around the cafeteria. Everyone was laughing.

I ran outside of the cafeteria and towards my locker. I got my stuff and ran out the school. How can this happen so fast? I started running to my rebuilt house. Once I got there, I opened the door and ran up to my room.

Thank god no one is home. I went straight to my bed and started crying. Everyone in school hates me. I bet even my family hates me. Maybe even Matt and Nash. Or the Jacks or the whole group. Maybe they're just acting like they love me but they actually don't.

I got up from my bed and went in my closet. I opened the small little door in the back and got a box out. I opened that box and got my real friend. I pulled my pants down and looked at my thigh.

Old scars almost gone. I can't believe I'm doing this again. I looked at the razor and pressed it against my thigh. 1 cut, 2 cuts, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, and 10. Ten cuts. I went into the bathroom and got a wet towel. I pressed it against my thigh and cleaned the blood.

*bang* I heard the door open and close. I pulled my pants up and ran towards the box, put everything in it, and hid it in the very small room again.

I changed clothes and went downstairs. "Lupe?" I turned around and saw Calum.
"Uh, hey dad." I said with a smile.
"What are you doing here?" He asked with a smile splattered across his face.
"I felt sick so I came home? Nothing to worry about." I said pulling off an amazing 'sick' voice.

"Oh okay. Well I just came to get some stuff that we forgot for the practice." He said.
"Oh okay."
"Well gotta go baby cakes. See you later and hope you feel better." He said as he hugged me and kissed my cheek.
"Thanks and okay. Bye dad see you later." I said as he headed out the door.

I headed up the stairs and to my room. I laid in bed and I slowly started closing my eyes. Then, I knocked out.

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Hey guys sorry I haven't posted in a while I'm sorry I'm sorry. Calm down. Okay song decided to have a day to post the chapters and I decided it will be Tuesday's. Yes, Tuesday's. Anyway hope yall liked it! Have an amazing day. Bye.🐘