The Day After He Killed Himself

Chapter 14

Gray looked at me and shrugged with a little smirk on his face. He was enjoying my jealousy and frustration; he was happy with himself for making me feel this was. So through mixed feelings of anger, sadness, confusion, and raw want for revenge, I turned and locked my eyes with Robert and I.......

Kissed him.

It wasn't how I expected my first kiss to go, nor who I thought it would be with, but it wasn't bad. I could tell that Robert was stunned at first by the way flinched when our lips touched, but after a second, he relaxed and grabbed my cheek with his hand. He gently bit my lip, and I tried to bite his, but it just didn't work. The kiss wasn't magical, like in the movies or my fantasies, it didn't get butterflies, and it only lasted about five seconds. But for those long and strange five seconds, I could only think of Gray, think of what his face must look like right now, hoping he was jealous, hoping that stupid little smirk was off his face.

When we pulled away from the kiss, Robert gave me this gorgeous smile, and his eyes lit up like a child on Christmas morning. "Wow, I was not expecting that."

"Sorry, was it bad?" I asked awkwardly.

"No no no, not that at all. It just caught me off guard, that's all." He smiled at me, and I blushed and hid my head in my hands. "But it definitely wasn't bad." Robert moved my hands from my face and looked at me with his loving brown eyes. "Can I kiss you again?" He asked so sweetly. I nodded, and our lips locked again. I liked how sweet he was, how gentle. It was a complete parallel to Gray's recklessness.

I tried so hard to make a magical feeling happen, but it just wasn't. It didn't surprise me too much though, Robert Elliot was the very last person I would ever think to be kissing. He's typically so loud and obnoxious, not to mention he called me a low life at his party. But now that I got to know him, he seemed so sweet, so caring. It's odd how people can change like that when you give them a chance.

When we pulled away again I snuggled up next to him, digging my head in his chest. I heard a loud crash, and I looked up to see a smashed vase on the floor and Gray, storming out of the room and upstairs.

Logan cursed a variety of colorful words and went after Gray. "I should go see what's going on." Robert told me, but I placed my hand on his chest to stop him.

"I'll go, I have a way of calming my brother down." Robert nodded, and I headed upstairs.

I heard Logan and Gray yelling in the kitchen like an old married couple. I couldn't quite make out what they were saying at first because they were shouting over each other, but then I heard my name. I stayed quiet and listened from the living room.

"I couldn't help it! She was kissing another guy!" Gray yelled, and my heart sunk.

"I don't care!" Logan yelled back. "You don't get to be mad at who she kisses, you had your chance with her, and you blew it!"

"I know that!" Gray slammed his hand on the counter and I jumped from the unexpected sound. "But that doesn't mean I don't still care about her." I have to admit I smiled at that, even though I should be mad at him.

"I don't care. I told you to stay away from River. Don't talk to her, don't go near her, don't even look at her. That's the only way we could all move on from this." Logan said sternly. It looks like they didn't entirely makeup after all, which I'm happy about considering how Gray hurt me, but a part of me just wants everything to go back to normal. "I only let you stay here tonight because it's a football event, and don't forget your still on probation."

"I know Logan," Gray said like a sad puppy. "and I appreciate you not telling anyone about what I did."

"I only did that because River asked me to, not to do you any favors." Logan scoffed.

"I would take it back, you know."

Logan rolled his eyes, not having any more of Gray's apologizes "Ya, I would hope you would take back assaulting my sister!"

"Not just that." Gray muttered. "I would take back all of it, going to the senior party, talking with River, asking her out, everything. Even though I care about her more than I've ever cared about anyone before, I know I hurt her, so I'd take back it all. I thought by coming here tonight, I could try to fix things between us, but if never talking to her again makes her happy, I'll leave." Logan didn't stop Gray from leaving the kitchen and heading out. I hid in a corner so Gray wouldn't see me as he walked through the living room, though when I saw a tear slip from his eye, I wanted to jump out and hug him.

His words lingered in my head, and I knew, even after everything, I still cared for him. Just as Gray reached the parole, I ran to him, telling him to wait.

"River?" He asked, surprised as his hand slid off the door handle. He looked at me with his sad green eyes, then sighed to himself, and without another word from either of us, he left.

I couldn't find any words to say until after the door was shut. "Wait." I muttered. I realized I never stopped thinking about Gray. Ever since the night if the party, he's been on my mind, always. I knew he hurt me; I knew I should never forgive him. But even as I had my first kiss with Robert Elliot, my mind didn't stray from Gray. 'He's the one.' I thought to myself.

"Don't go." I muttered, but he was gone...