Finding You.

CHAPTER 1

I can’t seem to process the words as they leave his mouth. “I don’t think I can lie to
you anymore” Lizo says, I try to come back from the trance that I seem to be in but
all I keep hearing are his words tremendously repeating themselves in my head as if I hadn’t heard what he just said to me. “I’m sorry Somi but I wanted to tell you sooner, I just didn’t know how… I couldn’t bring myself to doing that.”

“Why?” I manage to mouth, but the words just don’t seem to come out. This man, whom I had come to love so much over the past two years is becoming a blur as he stands in front of me, my eyes slowly pooling with inevitable tears.

He's been seeing someone else… someone who isn’t me, for a year now. “A
year?” Is all I manage to say next, my thoughts are jumbled, I seem frozen as I stand on this sidewalk, in the silent street of my neighbourhood. It’s Thursday, the 1st of August yet signs of winter have already dissipated.

The sun is blazing hot, despite the
early hours of the morning. It’s only 9am and I can already feel my day dragging
along, how will I get to work in this state? As if to take me out of my reverie, he
continues to speak, “Somi… she’s pregnant.” His voice sounds strange and strangled when he says this, as if it hurts him to say it more than it does me who hears it.

I stare at him in utmost disgust and loathe, and again as if I am confused about what
he has said… “Asiphe’s pregnant.” he repeats the torture. I heard him, I heard the word and it is imprinted in my mind, carved within me - pregnant. “How far along?” my voice sounds foreign even to my thrumming ears, do I really want to know?

“Seven months now, she’s due in October... Look, I know I should have told you
earlier, I’m sorry I lied to you and kept this from you, I…” I cannot bare to listen
anymore, my chest feels heavy and constricted, anger and betrayal lurking in the space between us.

My hands collide with his chest as I push him forcefully, he stumbles backwards and then steadies himself. “How could you…?” I push him again, this time he expected it and his body doesn’t budge, “I hate you, you’re a cheating bastard, you fucking disgust me!” I’m not aware of the tears falling down my cheeks at a rapid pace, I can’t bring myself to look at him, this liar, this cheater… my cheater.

Half of our relationship was based on a lie, I loved him while he loved someone else. I
grab my house keys from the pocket of my- his hood jacket and by the time I realize, my fingers are fumbling with the keys as I try to open the gate. I need to escape from this stranger who I once thought I knew.

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