Finding You.

CHAPTER 16

SOMILA

After eating my muffin, we walk out the front door as he takes my car keys from the key holder, my juice box still in hand. Outside, he presses the unlock button which gives a click and the lights flash, then holds open the driver's door for me as I step inside. "Call or text me when you get home." he demands. "If my b... if Lizo brings it back." A force of habit makes me want to say "boyfriend". "Don't you ever call him your boyfriend, he hasn't earned that title!" Why is he getting worked up? I don't want us to fight at the last moment. "I mean, I've been more of a boyfriend to you in the two days we've spent together, than he probably was in those two years."

Ouch... that hurts. I hate him because he's right once again, but I don't want to end this morning on such a depressive note. "I'm sorry Aya, it'll never happen again." I simply apologize to avoid an argument and me walking away without us having fixed things. What's there to fix it nothing was ever broken... if nothing was ever there to be broken in the first place. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm still not his "type". If what he said last night was true, then he'll say it again in sobriety. "Thank you." he sighs. "I'll be seeing you soon Somila Klaas." he kisses my cheek and closes the door. My ignition comes to life as I drive off, more confused than I ever was before.

As I'm driving, my mind is processing everything that happened last night and this morning - Aya Immediately opening the door to his bedroom after finding out that I was the one knocking, holding his open flesh while stitching him, his bloody hands on the sides of my face, us sharing a bottle, silently sitting on the floor watching the sunset. Making dinner together, playing FIFA against Sam, him sharing his paintings with me. I wore his clothes, slept in the same bed while he held me close to him. This all sounds so intimate, yet we didn't even get into intercourse. I wonder what Tlhogi will think when I tell her all of this.

I get home, park Njabs outside the yard and enter, glad that my mum isn't home yet since her car is still gone, and I'm wearing a big shirt that belongs to a man. Inside my room, my sisters are busy doing their hair and make-up, they're both beaming at me as they look away from my mirror. "What guys?" my eyes are wide with shock. "Tell us everything!" Tlhogi squeals, looking at the oversized t-shirt that covers my upper body. "What time is it?" I ask as I make my way to my closet, in search for something to wear. I'm also trying not to talk about Aya. If I do talk about him, it'll feel like I'm just admitting my feelings for him."Nine twenty five." Katli replies. "So we have thirty five minutes to get to church." I'm rummaging through my clothes when I settle on a black pencil skirt with a slit on my right leg, long-sleeved black crop top, stalkings and black heels.

Tlhogi hands me my phone when she's done with her face. "How did you...?" I begin to ask, but she answers before I finish. "He came here last night looking like a lunatic, his eyes literally popping out of his dumb skull. I told him you weren't here." she says with glee. "He was freaking out when Tlhogi told him you went out with Aya." Katli adds happily, she never really liked Lizo from the get go. "When he was leaving, I told him that you probably don't need this phone anymore because Aya would buy you a new one." Tlhogi says with a smirk.

"He kept saying how much he'll kill Aya." Katli rolls her eyes. She clearly doesn't believe that he's capable of doing just that. I'm scared for Aya. I know he can hold his own but whether he wins or loses, I'm afraid he'llgwt hurt anyway. If he defeats Lizo, then he might go to jail. I saw a hint of his angry side and I must say, it didn't look pretty at all. "Are you guys insane? How could you tell him all that stuff knowing full well that he's basically obsessed with me? What happens the next time Ayabonga pops up here and Lizo sees him? You guys. . . I was stitching Aya last night, closing the deep cut caused by Lizo! What happens when Aya and I actually finally date?"