Diary of a Loner..

Diary of a Loner.. 17

Dear Diary,

I woke up this morning to find the suns rays blazing through my bedroom window, at first it was a welcoming feeling to have the warm rays dancing on my face. To my disappointment I soon realised that it is actually a very difficult task to find your way out bed with the sun blinding you. It is no lie to say that I continuously whacked my hand off the bedside table and then eventually fell out of bed. Yes I know, not one of my most graceful moments. Once I eventually got up, I lazily strolled towards my bedroom window. The sun was shining proudly and confidently, spreading it's rays across the green country side. The sky was a brilliant blue and there was not a cloud to be seen. It was the perfect summers day and to top it all off I wasn't working.

I decided it was an excellent opportunity for all the gang to get together. So me being the perfect organiser I am (heavy sarcasm there) I text everyone to meet at the beach for a fun filled day.

It was nice to have the whole gang together again. We hadn't properly hung out together since Daniels surprise party. The girls, Lisa, Maggie and Caitlin brought along a huge picnic with them and the boys Scott and Caden brought along loads of beach games.

We spent the whole day at the beach, it was absolute bliss. I think I might have even gotten a bit of a tan which is practically a miracle! Maybe it was simply because the sun was burning brilliantly in the sky all day long. I swear it was the nicest day of the summer so far.

Around late afternoon, after everyone had eaten and relaxed for a bit Daniel and Scott began to set up the volley ball net. Soon everyone was divided into teams and the game was underway. Now I have never played volley ball before and I expected to be terrible at it. However that was not the case at all, I was actually pretty amazing!

Daniel, Lisa and I were on one team with Scott Caden and Caitlin on the other and Maggie took on the responsibility of refereeing. It was a very tight match and for a while it looked as if Scott's team was going to win. Fortunately though Daniel scored a few points for us to allow us win the game.

We let out shouts of joy and went running around Scott, Caden and Caitlin rubbing our victory in their faces. In the end we all collapsed onto the sand, the suns heat finally tiring us out.

I must have dozed off because when I woke, the beach was beginning to empty and the sun was starting to set. I remember looking around me sleepily and saw that the others were beginning to pack up. Our day at the beach had come to an end.

Now diary, I don't know how you're going to react to this part but in my defence it had to be done. I talked to Scott. In private. I had to do it, I needed to talk with him and just explain our situation. I couldn't just stop talking to him all the time. I didn't want him to think I was ignoring him. I couldn't do that to Scott.

All I said was that I felt it would be wise if we kept our distance. We were still friends and we were still going to hang out together and have a laugh together. But we weren't going to be as close as we had been. I told him I thought it was only fair as I didn't want Daniel to be paranoid and I didn't want to put a strain on their friendship.

Scott was very understandable about it. He knew exactly where I was coming from and even said he had been thinking along the same lines. It was like a weight off of my shoulders to have spoken to him. I'm glad he understands but in a way I feel a bit sad about it. In the last few weeks I had really begun to value Scott as a friend and now that's gone. I guess it's my own fault though, if I hadn't been so stupid at Daniels party this would never had happened.

I can't continue to live in the past though. As my mom would say "let bygones be bygones" I have to forget about it now and just move on. What's most important is that things are ok with Daniel and I. He has a more important role in my life then Scott ever did and I should just be grateful that things have been sorted between us. It's time for me to start being more positive!