Diary of a Loner..

Diary of a Loner.. 8

I don't know what the hell I was so worried about and I can't believe I'm actually writing this down but Daniel loves me!  He told me he loved me, I cant believe it. Everything just feels so surreal right now. Is it actually possible that me, the loner that always kept to herself can be loved by someone as amazing and full of life as Daniel. Along with all my joy and giddyness, I do also feel a bit relieved because I did feel as if I dived into this relationship head first. For some reason I felt as if I liked Daniel too much and that I was falling for him way too fast. But that doesn't matter now because he loves me, he freaking loves me and I love him too! 

I know it has only been a month and I know it probably is very early for us to be developing these feelings for each other but right now I don't even care. I don't care because for the first time in my life I feel as if I actually belong with someone, I feel completed. Our date was beautiful I couldn't have asked for anything more perfect. He took me out for a picnic up on top of Seskin hill. It was breathtaking up there. He'd brought me up there just as the sun was setting behind the majestic mountain range on the far side of town. 

As the sun slowly disappeared the lights from the town below began to illuminate the surrounding area. It was a magical image. We sat under a large oak tree at the very top of the hill and Daniel laid out the picnic. He had packed all my favourite foods like pasta and cheese, kinder bueno bars and strawberries, I love how thoughtful he is. We sat for ages eating and chatting with each other. When i began to get cold he even gave me his hoddie, I swear it was like a scene from a movie it was so perfect. As night fell the stars began to show themselves and we lay side by side gazing at them. That was when he told me. 

We were pointing out the constellations to each other and he just turned over on his side and stared intently at me with those gorgeous chocolate brown eyes. I began to blush under his gaze, he smiled and starting stroking my heated cheek and then he said "I know this seems fast but I have to tell you because I can't keep this feeling to myself any longer. I love you Faye." Oh I'm getting all those butterfly feelings in my stomach again just thinking about it. Honestly I wanted to jump up and scream with joy but of course I couldn't, so I put all my energy into kissing him passionately  and then I said to him how I didn't care that it was too fast, I felt the same way, I loved him too.

After that we cuddled together under the picnic blanket and once again went star gazing. We were lucky enough to catch a glimpse of a shooting star. I wished that by the time summer came we would have a solution to the problem that faced us. I hope it comes true because I don't want to be away from Daniel. I can't be away from him, not after tonight anyway. We belong together and nothing is going to stand in the way of that.