Lapidot: beach city high

Wait what

Peridot POV
"Lapis I-" I started to say before a loud boom from a firework that went off that startled me before I could answer. And before I could go back going back to what I was going to say I then heard amethyst yelling out to us.

"Hey guys what you doing up there! Don't you want to lite some fireworks with us!"

"Ah yeah we do save some for us!"lapis said.

"Well then hurry your butts cause these babies going out fast!"

Wait what's going on here she just confessed to me and before I even got to tell how I feel I get interrupted bye a firework. And she more interested in that what is happening!? And she already getting up to get down to where is everybody is going what I'm so confused right of what's happening."lapis wait  umm I didn't get to finish what I was saying." I say while grabbing ahold of her arm before she can go any further without me finishing."oh yeah hehe don't worry about I was just joking." Lapis says while sweat drops from her face as well her starting to become red."A joke oh I see." I say as well feeling a pain in my chest from hopping that she actually felt the same as I did. But I guess not I must be stupid for thinking someone like her actually liking me." Yeah just a joke heh sorry if it made you uncomfortable. Also could you let go of my arm please"I then soon realize I was still holding onto her arm and as soon as she said that I let her arm go."ah sorry I didn't mean to hold you for so long." I said embarrassed while scratching the back of my head in embarrassment." Ah no worries. Sorry for the lame weird joke I just did a while ago."this is kinda awkward."Yeah it's all good no worries we cool my buddy old pal." What did I just say my buddy old pal what am I even saying uh this awkwardness is killing me. Please someone just save me now or just kill me now.

"Hey you slow pokes what you guys still doing up there we're going to end up using all the fireworks without you guys" oh thank god I couldn't be more thankful for amethyst interruptions.

"I guess we should head down now" I suggest and lapis nods in agreement. After thank we head down with the others to the beach shore to lite some fireworks. I didn't really talk to lapis much after that it felt to weird knowing that confession was just a joke. I don't know how to feel after that I guess I always knew I never had a chance with her and I guess this was my wake up call to face the fax. How could this possibly get any worse.

Lapis POV

Ahhhhhhhhhhh why did I just say all that to her. I feel like an awful person who just says after a confession to your crush. My dumb self just being oh hoho silly peridot that was just a silly joke from your good old pal lapis. Just up to her jokes again ahhh what is wrong with me why did I do that. Ugh I'm already hating myself I just want to curl up into a ball and just die. Ok no this is good cause now I don't know what rejection feels like. Mmm ok no that's bad maybe she did like me and I just blew my chance unless no there's always a chance. But she was quick to believe that it was a joke and if she did like me she wouldn't have believed it so easily so this was a way out for her to say that she doesn't feel the same about me yeah that must be it. Unless she actually like me and is just to shy to say it and just believed it was a joke yep makes a lot of sense now how great it has come full circle now. Actually this makes no sense what am I even thinking. Ah just face it lapis you just blew your chances to even finding out if the girl you like could even feel the same as you. Why do I always do this to myself I should learn to actually do the things I want to, to have courage and just do it. Instead of just running away like a coward maybe I shouldn't have said anything it would have saved this awkwardness between me and her right now. Oh well I guess I'll have to make it up to her and myself somehow heh I guess this means i can get another chance to tell her how I feel. I hope next time I chicken out again.

"Hey lapis."

"Huh"

"Dude you ok you kinda spacing out there?"