I'll Remember

Chapter 39 | Awkward

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I walk beside Diamond awkwardly. No one said a single word, until we reached our houses.

This is...Hella unconformable.
"But, wait isn't this your fault?" Logic asked. 

I shrug to myself, and clear my throat about to speak.

Then, " Okay, see you around--"
"Wait," I say grabbing hold of her wrist, desperate. "Are you mad?" 

Her frown changed to an annoyed expression. "Of course I'm pissed,"

"I didn't mean t--" I got cut off.

"You didn't mean to?!" She yanks her hand away. "Leo, you kissed me in front of the entire school, Do you know how much rumors are gonna spread? It's f*cked up!"Diamond shouts.

Yeah, she's totally pissed.

"I-I didn't think of tha--"

"Of coarse you didn't think that, you weren't thinking at all."

"I-I know, I'm sorry, I just...Joy she--"

"First of all, you shouldn't have shown up in the first place, I could've dealt with that b*tch by myself. And second, you must've bee out of your mind to just waltz up to me and kiss me without my permission!" 

Oh sh*t, Oh sh*t, Oh sh*t.

"Joy's my ex, okay? I wanted her to feel jealous er something, stupid, I'm sorr--"

"Jealous? You kissed, me to make your ex feel Jealous?!" Diamond shouting, very displeased with me. "N-no, I didn't mean it like tha--"

"You did mean it like that, otherwise you never would've said it--"

"I wanted to kiss you, okay? I've been wanting to kiss you again, ever since that other night..." I say admitting. I don't now why. "It wasn't even that long ago, but I managed to really...just start liking you...allot."

Crap, crap, crap, I'm an Idiot, what the heck did I just say???

Diamond, looked at me with all negative expressions plastered on her face.

F*ck......And I mean, Holy F*ck...

"I have to go," Is all she said.

"Wait, Diamond--" I grabbed her arm, and instantly she pulled away, "I have to go, Leo!" Her tone is high, and her voice is unfriendly. So I let her rush towards her house. I watch her until she disappear from my sight. And then I melt to the ground, and sit there like a pathetic loser.

A couple second later, my phone rings, and I answer it.

"Leo, why am I hearing sh*tty rumors about you?" Dallas' voice fills my ear. 

I groan, and fall straight on my back, in the middle of the pavement. 
"Leo? C'mon man," Dallas.

Then someone approaches me, not questioning anything. They look at me for a second, then step over me, and continue walking. 
Anyone as heartless as that, you could already guess it was Mic. Yeah I have a heartless, bro, like he didn't even ask if I was okay...so rude.

"Are you even listening?" Dallas asked. "Did you really kiss Diamond?"
Memories, of our argument that just literally happened, flash through my head.

I groan once again,
"Somebody f*ckin' stab me."

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"Well..." Dallas starts after I finish telling him what happened between Diamond and I.
"At least, we now know how she feels toward you," I could practically see him shrugging.
I groan, and plant my face in my pillow.
"Noooooo,"

"I'm joking, my guy, It couldda gone worse by the way."

"That's the worst it can get," I mutter, feeling sorry for my entire existence. "I'm such dumb*ss!"

"If I'd be in your presence, I wouldda patted you on the back, and tell you that your not a dumb*ss," Dallas says simply.

"Thanks Dal--"

"I'd say, your an *sshole,"

"Not helping." I state. "Bro, If I were Diamond, I'd be mad, if my friend, came up to me and randomly kissed me."

"Again, not helping." 

Dallas sighs, and neither of us say anything.
I really don't know what I'm going to do. This is so humiliating, I don't even know why I decided to speak the words. Now I know what it feels like to get cheated on, and rejected. I might as well just...become like Micah.

........

Yeah, that's not ever....gonna happen. I can't even Imagine my-self smoking a cigarette, but Mic said he's trying to quit so we'll see how things turn out.

"Alright, deal with your pitiful sorrow on your own, bye." Dallas mumbles then hangs up before I can say bye back, but it's whatever. Later on, I get up off my bed and head over to Mic's room, with the door shut as always. 

"Hey, Mic?" I say tapping on the door. "What?" he said, not negatively. 

"Can I come in..?" I ask.

"....Why the h*ll would you wanna come in?" Mic, back to negativity. I sigh and open the door with out permission, and Mic is just sitting on his bed with his phone. He had no shirt on, and I notice, at least two more tattoos on his body, from the last time. I really don't know how.

"Sup," I say occasionally. "Your rooms homey,"

"What do you wan't?" Mic asks, still negatively. "Nothing much, just bored." 
He turns his attention back to his phone, ignoring my existence. 
"What do your tattoos mean?" I ask looking at the rather random things tattooed onto his body. Like An actually cool looking design of a lotus flower on his shoulder, Like, allot of people get Lotus flower tattoos because it means something about that spiritual sh*t, And then words on his right forearm, I have no clue what it says, and the one on his chest was a number in roman numerals, so, Yeah, he probably has more.

"None of your business." Mic answers flatly. 

"Well I know what the flower means."

"Good for you,"

"How'd you get tattoos anyway, aren't you under aged?" Me still bothering Mic.

"I know a guy, you can leave now."

"Can I get one?" 

"No, you can get out of my room,"

"Mic, I messed up with Diamond, she's so pissed at me right now, and I practically see her everyday, so an it's awkward situation." That's, low-key just what I actually wanted to talk about.

"Not my problem," Mic mumbles.

"Exactly, it's my problem, and I don't wan't to be in this problem. I wan't this problem to disappear, so my life would be a tad bit easier."

Mic says nothing, and continues to scroll through his phone, probably ignoring me. 

I walk farther in the room, and he doesn't react, which is cool because I haven't stepped in here in a while. "Are you listening?" I ask.

"No," Mic said. 

"I kissed Diamond," I say quickly, like Mic would be shocked, but he really doesn't care, by the way he's acting. "I kissed her twice, and I regret both, because that's why she's mad at me, and I did that in front of a pretty large crowd, cause I'm a dumb*ss. Oh my gosh, what was I thinking? She's so mad at me, right now. But I kissed her because I like her, but I never shouldda done it like that, and then when I told her I liked her, she just walked away, and that makes me even more, frightened to see her tomorrow, because now, I feel embarrassed and rejected, and like an a**hole. Are you listening, Mic?" I ask after my sorrowful speech.

"Nope,"

"Okay, great, I just realized I don't wan't you to know what I said." 

"I don't know," Mic.

"Okay, I'm going out for a bit," I say, really spaced. But my brain doesn't realize, Mic definitely was listening to everything I said, otherwise, he would have never responded to my question.

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