I Trust You: Captain Swan (1)

Do Our Eyes Decieve Us?

OUAT Ch16
Give credit if you repost picture. I just edited specifically for this chapter.

(Killian)

Snow stood in the hallway and motioned with my hands for me to come out. I look at Henry and give a look that says 'Don't worry'. I stand up slightly nervous and walk out of the waiting room door.

"Yes?" I ask her curiously.

She breathes deeply and I notice tears in her eyes. "Sh- she wants to see you." She says softly and sniffles.

From what I just heard I should be excited, but I can tell something is wrong. "Is everything alright, love?" I ask gently.

She closes her eyes and sighs, then quickly says, "She doesn't remember you."

A haze clouds my mind. I try to focus on what Mary Margret just said, but it's as if I can't comprehend it. I heard the words but their meaning hasn't struck yet.

"S-she remembers very small details. It's like when you wake up from a dream and can't remember what it was about except the obvious things in the back of your mind." She says this all quickly and continues on. I silence her with my hand and look up at her.

"She doesn't remember me?"

Tears flow out of her eyes. She must not be able to imagine what it's like for your true love to forget you. Especially in a scenario when a kiss can not save you.

She shakes her head, "Oh Killian. I so- so sorry for you." She says hugging me.

The only emotion in my face is seen through my eyes. The depression already fills them, but I don't cry. Instead I say, "Take me to her."

She blinks away the tears then leads me down the hallway. We go to a new room in Critical Care and stop by a glass door that has a name plate 'Emma Swan'. David waits for us outside. When we reach him, Mary Margret says she will go back to the waiting room because only two people are allowed back here. I think she did not want to see the blank look on Emma's face when I walk in.

Before I can even go in David stops me. "Dr. Whale said she would have memory losses. She doesn't remember anything after getting your ship back in Tallahassee. He also said she had forgotten memories affiliated with certain people who she thought most about during her little trip."

She thought about me the most?

"Look, I'm not trying to say everything is okay, but Dr.Whale believes with time, and if surgery goes well, she will make a full recovery including her memory. But until then you'll just have to hang in there." He says confidently. Surprised at his sudden show of sympathy, I nod in thanks.

"Does she remember anything about me? Or .. Hook?" I ask nervously.

He shakes his head, "Not yet, but I told her your story."

"Thank you, mate." I say.

"Don't try to force her memory okay?" He says as I place my hand on the door handle.

"I won't."

And with that I open the door into Swan's hospital room.

(Emma)

I stare through the glass door at the man my father is talking to. They said he is my true love, but it's hard for me to believe that. From what I can tell he is very good looking with slight stubble on his face. The only thing on him is a black tshirt and jeans. I would imagine he would have a jacket somewhere because it is freezing even inside.

Since I'm apparently in love with him, I try to take in all I can of him. He's slightly slouching. A depression fills his whole appearance. Like a weight on his shoulders, pushing him down until he crumbles under pressure. I feel a certain amount of déjà vu.

Somehow I know exactly what he is feeling just by looking at him because I have felt that exact weigh before. It's very hard to explain especially with the constant pounding in my head. My brain has been replaced by an alarm clock, ticking away until the big boom that starts the downfall.

The doctor said to have hope, or something like that, but I am so confused with this whole situation. I'm missing almost four months of my life. And I can't recall anything about some of the most important people in my past.

When I was unconscious before surgery, I remember having some visions. They seemed like memories at the time, but now I'm not so sure. One of them feels like it really happened right infront of me. Not a memory, but real life. It was a man with vibrant blue eyes. He looked angry, but more then that, broken-hearted.

I can picture him standing in front of me right now. Black tshirt. Jeans. Ruffled black hair and gorgeous blue eyes. Just enough scruff on his chin to be noticeable. Slouching with depression, but trying so strongly to wear a brace face.

And then he speaks. "Hello Love."

The confusion surely shows n my face. Maybe I zoned out. Is this a vision? Think Emma. Is this reality? What happened right before this?

I close my eyes and hold my head in my hands. The pounding grows louder.

He's so familiar, yet I remember nothing. The harder I try the further away it all slips.

I can hear the man asking me if I'm alright. He shouts some things. The pounding of my head is too loud. All I can see is black. All I hear is screaming. And crying. Probably my own.

My brain is being squeezed into a tiny marble. Maybe I'm dying? Is this really what I want my last thoughts to be about? Dying?

Everything is still blurry and chaotic. I don't know what's really happening around me, but I do see one thing. The man standing in front of me. Tears in his eyes.

(Killian)

I walked into her hospital room. She was reclined on the bed, staring right at me. We both stood there for some time.

Maybe in another world our tale is not so tragic. Maybe she does remember some of me. Like I'm from a dream. She might be able to remember visions of my face, smiling, laughing, shouting. Of her dad arguing with a guy about her. Perhaps she can see herself, leaving behind someone special on top of a beanstalk.

Or I have to much hope. Maybe it's much worse then it seems. She could be sitting here pretending to think about me because she doesn't remember or thing. She might have no recollection of Killian.. Or Hook for that matter.

Perhaps it's even worse then that. What if she remembers me and she's faking it because after getting forces into this relationship with me she changes her mind.

Her stare pierces me. It interrupts my thoughts. Her green eyes filled with awe. I feel like I need to say something. But I can't say what I normally would say to her, or what I want to say. David said not to force the memories.

So I settle for: "Hello Love."

As soon as the words leave my mouth, she is holding her head in her hands. She mumbles no and shakes all over. I rush over to her side. Something bad is happening. Her mumbles change to shrieks then bloodcurdling screams. I run out the door and call down the hall for Dr.Whale.

He domes around the corner confused then he must have heard the screams. He calls some nurses and rushes down the hall.

I run back into the room. Emma's crying and shouting with her eyes wide open. The stare at me with confusion and sadness. Nurses threaten to pull me out of her room. Away from her presence.

A male nurse takes me by the arm and starts to drag me away. I look into Emma's crying eyes. I know I must say something; if I don't the feeling of guilt will tear me apart. I say it quickly. She probably cannot understand it. I say it quickly and angrily, but full of emotion for her. "Right now.. Looking into your eyes. I realize something. Something you deserve to know. And I know you can not remember me, but I want you to know that no matter what happens.."
I'm pulled out the door but I shout it to her. "I love you."

However much it breaks my heart, I must note the fact that her expression did not change.

As I'm being pulled down the hall, away from her, I catch some of Dr. Whale's words. "Get her to brain surgery. Now!"