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A A L I Y A H
In the last two months, things has changed in my life for the better and I want to thank God for making these blessings happen in my life. Without god, I wouldn't be where I am now like what Future say... Life Is Good.
When I returned home after staying with Bryson, that's when my sperm donor beat the hell outta of me that day and I couldn't even go out looking the way I was looking. When Arianna or Bryson would call me to hang out then I would tell them that I couldn't because I was sick or sum other reason. I honestly didn't want them to see me like this, to be honest.
There was one time when Bryson had his gut feeling that something wasn't right. I didn't know he was going to actually pop up on me but he did. When I looked through the peephole to see him on the other side of the door calling my name. I just stood there at the door letting the tears run down my face til he finally decided to give up. I watched him walk back towards his car and drive off causing my heart to break even more.
I opened the door to look down to see that it was flowers and beautiful pink bear on the porch. As I picked them up, that's when something told me to check my surroundings to notice his all blacked out mercedes benz was two houses down from me. He stood there leaning against his hood watching my every move then I glared at him one last time before tears started back falling down my face again.
On my dad side of the family, one of my young girl cousins is sadly blind and deaf so the family had to learn sign language for her. I had taught Bryson sign language because he thought that shit was cool. I told him "Thank you" in sign language and he gave me a head nod. I closed the door behind me and slide down the wall while the tears kept running down my face begging God would get me out this situation.
They always say that God put his strongest warrior through the toughest battles but I need him to get me out of this tough battle, please.
He heard all of my prayers and a couple of weeks later, I moved into my brand-new apartment that is in Massachusetts like only Arianna and Bryson know where I live right now.
When they called me letting me know that I got the apartments and was able to move in like I wasted no time packing up everything that I wanted to bring with me and left the things that I couldn't bring with me. Once I had everything packed in my arm then I quickly wrote a letter for my father.
Dear Dad,
I just want to tell you that I can't do this anymore. After mom was sadly killed, you have changed into a man that isn't my father. You claim that you love me but if you REALLY did then you wouldn't come home last at night to beat on me. Someone who loves someone would never do this type of pain to them. Mom would feel hurt, disappointed and betrayed that the man that she was supposed to get married to in two weeks is beating on an angel that they brought into this cruel world. I want my daddy back... the man who wouldn't let nobody hurt his lil girl. The man who would take his two favorite girls out and put a smile on both of their faces. The man that I once called my hero and looked up too. That's the man that I truly need and always needed in my life to help me out. You were the same man that taught and showed me how a REAL man should treat his lady. I need that father figure in my life to guide me through my problems with men. I will never be the same now I may put a smile on for the world but deep down that doesn't change the fact that the man that I once called my father... hurt me and broke me down. In the future, I may forgive you but I will never forget what you put me through. I really do love you dad but I gotta do what I need to do. I will be back like I promise but I really want you to get help not just for me but for mom, please. I left a heart necklace on your bed so when you open the heart then it's a picture of me and mom so you will remember us. I also have a heart necklace with you and mom that I will keep it close to my heart. I really do hope you do right after reading this letter. I love you forever and always!
