if without you || seongjoong

even if we're away

tw: blood
started from  ***  until  ***

yeosang stepped into hongjoong's space.

hell.

why were the frames on the ground , all scattered–

did they just fight?

he didn't see hongjoong to be anywhere. he took another step–

the door instantly closed.

hongjoong was leaning to the door.

yeosang crouched in front of hongjoong.

"hyung? what happened?" he asked.

he let his eyes scanned hongjoong's body.

eyes were blank, staring away with no exact destination.

overflowing silent tears were decorating his face.

***

hands on his sides, red and some specks of blood started to rise.

feet were also red but with fresh blood running away.

***

"hyung what the fuck?" he screamed in fear.

hongjoong stayed on his position, not even flinching from yeosang's sudden shot.

"let's go to the hospital," yeosang asked as he put his arms around hongjoong, preparing to picked him up.

"i hate hospitals," hongjoong croacked.

"what?" yeosang couldn't believe how hongjoong was saying no to hospital with this condition.

hongjoong didn't repeat himself, because it reminded him of seonghwa.

"i'm calling 119," yeosang said as he pulled his phone.

hongjoong stayed frozen. he was totally numb.

he had decided to not be with seonghwa.

seonghwa, who usually took care of him during his day-offs.

seonghwa, who usually put a heat pack on his stiff back after working a whole day.

seonghwa, who usually bought him vitamins and medicines even if hongjoong was just catching a cold.

seonghwa, who usually was caring and rarely raise his voice.

seonghwa, who was very excited everytime their eyes matched secretly during games.

seonghwa, who was always ecstatic when he saw hongjoong on his door.

and i wished you didn't pay me a visit that night!

how could a single sentence brought hongjoong to a decision to broke their relationship?

seonghwa, who's heart once belonged to soccer.

seonghwa, who's heart once belonged to soccer and hongjoong.

seonghwa, who's heart now belonged to soccer. and his fans.

and maybe his reputation.

and maybe his sponsors.

and hongjoong couldn't keep seonghwa to himself.

hongjoong couldn't be that selfish.

hongjoong knew how hard seonghwa paved his way back from jinju all the way to seoul.