if without you || seongjoong

epilogue : if without you

seonghwa had a heart that was meant for things he love.

his heart once belonged to soccer.

and then to his boyfriend, hongjoong.

and then to his fans.

and then to his sponsors.

and then hongjoong decided to move back.

hongjoong didn't want seonghwa to suffocate by that.

so he left.

but then, everything in seonghwa's heart faded away.

his love for his sponsors,

his love for his fans, too.

one thing for sure, his love for hongjoong stayed.

it had grew its root on seonghwa's heart. no winds or harsh weather could blew it down.

its flowers kept on blooming, no matter how dry the ground were because hongjoong never came back to water it.

it encouraged seonghwa to finally let go other small things in his life.

his pride,

his job,

his stupid addiction,

even his time.

he spent a year to treat himself.

it was very hard, he struggled so much. he went through so many hardships.

all by himself.

but hongjoong said that hongjoong will wait for him, so seonghwa tried his best.

just like that cheesy line that seonghwa once saw; sometimes it was better to let go, rather than holding on too hard.

so he managed to let those things go.

and when he came back, the man who owned seonghwa's heart was there.

as what hongjoong promised, hongjoong waited for him.

***

well, maybe it wasn't all for hongjoong.

seonghwa's love for soccer was still there.

even after his rehabilitation, his resignation, he couldn't let it go.

so he asked hongjoong, how about hongjoong and soccer make a deal?

half part of seonghwa's heart for hongjoong,

the other half for soccer?

hongjoong said that he had a lot of space, a little too much, so he didn't bother to share it.

but, seonghwa decided to share his love for soccer to everyone, so soccer will never threw hongjoong away.

he decided to teach little kids. maybe one of those kids could love soccer as much as seonghwa did, so soccer will always had its place in this world.

was seonghwa happy with that?

very.

***

"what are we gonna do?" hongjoong asked as he drowned himself in seonghwa's chest.

"he's an old man. i heard he got three kids. let's just let him be," his boyfriend stated as he played on hongjoong's hair, eyes staring at the ceiling.

"and baro?" hongjoong carefully said the dreaded name.

"let's just forget about it, shall we?" seonghwa looked at his boyfriend's eyes.