song - thinking 'bout you by ariana grande
bold - song lyrics
normal - present time
italic - flashback
i been thinking 'bout you. yeah, i've been missing you.
2 weeks ago, my boyfriend broke up with me with no explanation and hasn't shown up to school since. my anxiety has me going crazy thinking about him and i miss him in ways i never thought were possible.
where the hell are you, boy, when i need you?
he left me right when i needed him the most. school is kicking my ass and i'm getting messed with everyday. i used to at least have him to talk to, but now i feel like i have no one.
i can still hear your voice, i ain't got no choice. cause i'm here all alone. i know i can't wait til you get home.
i miss him with everything in me. he's the love of my life, my best friend, my soulmate. every time he crosses my mind, all i can think about is his voice.
"hey angel."
oh, i don't have you here with me, but at least i have the memory.
thinking about him makes the memory of him hurt even more, but sometimes it's better to feel pain than nothing at all.
mattia pressed his lips against mine and smiled into the kiss, then he pulled away.
"i love you angel."
i tried to make it through the night, but i can't control my mind.
once i got home from school, i tried to hold back the tears that were pooling in my eyes as i headed to my bedroom. once the door shut behind me, i laid down in my bed and let it all out. a few minutes later, i heard a knock on the door.
"come in," i sniffled. my mom peeked her head in with a soft smile on her face.
"are you okay angel?" she asked. all it took was that one word for me to come crumbling down.
i'm just thinking 'bout you, i'm thinking 'bout you, i'm thinking 'bout you. i'm just thinking 'bout you, i'm thinking 'bout you, i'm thinking 'bout you.
please come back.
got these thoughts in my head. ain't no way to forget.
as i sat in my english class, i couldn't stop thinking about him. the way his face lit up when i said 'i love you' for the first time. when he surprised me with a huge birthday party when i thought he forgot. his smile. his-
"y/n!" my teacher yelled, snapping me out of my thoughts.
"hm?" i answered. i heard snickers coming from all around the class.
"pay attention."
got me losing my breath, nobody got me the way that you did.
"shh, it's okay angel, i got you," mattia whispered, holding me in his arms as i cried.
"why do i have to be me?" i sobbed.
