trauma and it's healer [KomaHina]

Chapter 1 ~ His Diary

Nagito Komaeda finished the rest of his bagels as he stood up from his seat in the corner to throw his trash away. As he walked out from the restaurant, he could feel some of his fellow students talking about him. Not that he cared, just an observation.

Komaeda ran into Hajime Hinata on his way to his cabin. They exchanged greetings. It was slightly awkward, to be honest.

Komaeda unlocked his cabin and strutted straight to his bed. He opened his bedside drawer, pulling out a leather-covered journal along with a ball-point pen. The albino flipped to a clean page.

Komaeda started writing:

Dear Diary,

How long do you think the poison here takes to take affect? Heh, y'know it's silly that I write in this diary with questions, as if you'll answer.

Do you think people will care if I poisoned myself? I think poisoning is the funnest way to die. Why? Because then, you'll have some time to do the things you want to do before you die. Because people will think that you're just cheery or really upset that day. Then, find your dead body in your cabin. It's comical, really.

Oh yeah, have you ever noticed that in anime, the villain is either really attractive or really fucking ugly. Heh, I've been thinking about that a lot lately, actually.

I think I'm done venting for today.

Love you!

Komaeda shut his leather-skinned journal with a sigh. He'd been trying to write in this diary that Sonia gave him, instead of bothering everyone else. He agreed to the idea reluctantly at first, but the more he did it, the better he felt.

Komaeda stretched for a moment. He was deciding what to do since he had a lot of Free Time. He put his thumb to his lip as he sat on his bed, crossing his legs, the position was very comfortable to him, he admitted. He decided to go to the arcade, maybe Chiaki Nanami would be there. It didn't matter much to him, he just wanted to relax for a while.

The hope-obsessed boy opened the hotel's door, his eyes immediately led him to the arcade. He found himself walking over to Chiaki who was entranced into her game. Nagito found himself staring at the girl and the game for quite a while.

When she got herself to a "GAME OVER" screen, the pastel-pink-haired sighed and looked around. Chiaki found Nagito zoning out, staring straight into the screen, he found himself making eye contact with Chiaki.

"Oh! Chiaki! Sorry, I was just interested in your game," Nagito chuckled. "Mm, yeah. Do ya wanna play a round, Komaeda?" Chiaki asked, she was pretty exhausted from how long her round was. Nagito nodded and walked over to the arcade machine.

Nagito stuck his tongue out as he intensely stared at the screen.

He got to Level 6 before getting to the infamous "GAME OVER" screen.

"Ah, just my luck," Nagito sighed, "Sorry, I'm not too good at this game. Heh."

Chiaki leaned over, putting her arm over the white-haired boy's shoulder, to Nagito's surprise. After, the two played a few more rounds, they went over to the restaurant to get something to drink. Chiaki got a green tea and Komaeda got a lemonade. They chatted until their drinks were completely empty, along with a plate of cake each. (Just so you know, the cakes were kind of small.)

*Nagito Komaeda spent his Free Time with Chiaki Nanami*

Nagito waved to Chiaki as he happily pranced towards his the cabins. "Wait! Nagito," Chiaki exclaimed all of a sudden, catching up to Nagito, "Do you have a crush? I mean, I think we really grew a lot closer today!"

Nagito and Chiaki walked side-by-side, as Nagito looked down thinking. "Hm, yeah I don't think I have one, but Hajime's pretty," Nagito explained, looking back up. "Ope! This is my cabin. See ya, Chiaki-chan!" She nodded and waved.

Little did the white-haired boy know, Chiaki Nanami had a plan.

She pranced to her cabin in excitement. "New ship, new ship, new ship..." Chiaki chanted quietly to herself as she violently opened her door. She launched herself onto her bed with her journal and ball-point pen. (Every cabin has a journal and pen.)

Nanami wrote in her entry:

Ships <3

-Ibuki x Mikan

-Hiyoko x Mahiru

-Akane x Nekomaru

-Souda x Gundham x Sonia (Love Triangle UHEFVUYBDUY can't decide HDINJEFIU)

-Komaeda x Hajime

Her face was scolding red, fangirl mode was 100% activated.

Komaeda sat on his bed. He was sweating bullets. His eyes were filled with tears who were just waiting to be released from his eyes. He tried to breathe. He couldn't. He choked down a few large breaths, allowing tears to fall down. He paced his breath to a calm pace again. He placed his head onto a pillow. Eventually, the boy found himself in a deep sleep.

The safest place were his dreams.

They were the only thing that still gave him hope.