Love In Disguise

Chapter 7

When I woke up, I was home lying in my bed. My head was banging and I had no idea how I got here. I sat there thinking and I immediately jumped and started looking for my phone. I had to find my phone and call my client. I had to apologize and reschedule another meeting. This was a big client not only for me but for my firm as well; I had to reschedule.

I got up and looked around my room for my bag but couldn't find it. I headed downstairs to the living room and saw Jada laying there sleep on the couch. I walked around quietly looking for my bag but I couldn't find it. I walked over to my desk and sent Mr. Kennedy an email then went to the kitchen to get me a bottle of water.

Once I walked out of the kitchen I noticed Jada grabbing her stuff.

"Jada, can we talk?"

"What is there to talk about?"

"I want to know why you are acting like this."

"How am I acting Jasmine?"

"You know exactly how you are acting. Can you just talk to me and tell me what's wrong?" I asked pleading with her.

"You know, that's the same thing I have been asking you since we have been talking," she stated with a smirk on her face.

"I know babe, it's just a lot of things that you couldn't possibly understand."

"How do you know that when you have never gave me the fucking chance to understand? We have been talking for almost four years now and I still don't know who you are. I have never met your family. Hell I haven't even heard you mention them except for when my mom brought it up at dinner a few months ago. I have been faithful to you even though we are not together. I know about all those other bitches you have been fucking on the side but I didn't care because you were the only thing that mattered to me. I put my heart on the line and that was stupid on my behalf. I can't blame you for who you are, but I will distance myself from it."

"Jada I love you."

"No you love the thought of me, and now that I ready to walk away you want to throw yourself out there. Do you know how many women I have turned away because of you? Do you know how many chances I have had to move on, but because my dumb ass thought you would change and would actually give a fuck about me I stuck around."

"But I do love you. Yes it took the fact that you are not talking to me to realize that I really want you in my life. I will do whatever it takes to get you to see that I really do love you. I know now that my life without you is nonexistent. You are my everything, and I can't see myself loving or even caring about anybody else. Remember on our first date you brought me that letter?"

"I don't have time for this. I'm leaving," she stated walking to the door.

I grabbed her arm. "You said that from the moment you saw me you knew I was the one you were going to fall in love with and that you would make me love you back. Well you ended up doing that and more. You also promised me in that letter that no matter how bad it got and how mad you were at me you would always talk to me, that you would always love me. Can you keep that promise to me? I want to make it better. I want things to go back to the way they were. I already lost one best friend; I don't think I could go on with losing another one."

"I'm really sorry about Diamond, I am. I do love you and always will, but you have hurt me one too many times and now I must put myself first. I have to learn to love me again." She placed one of the softest, sweetest kisses on my lips and opened the door. "Goodbye Jasmine."

Once she walked out the door my heart fell completely out of my chest. It hurt so bad that crying wouldn't even begin to show the pain that I was feeling. First I find out that I've lost Diamond and now I have lost the love of my life. My life has literally done a complete 180 and I really don't know how much more I can handle. I promised myself that I would never let anyone else make me feel this way ever again, but here I am.