Love In Disguise

Chapter 12

Standing next to Jada looking at a painting, I was so relieved when she didn't say anything about Tori. She really had me nervous for a minute. When Tori left, Jada finished what she started with me before we had to get dressed. I know I'm going to have to tell her about Tori and I, but I really don't know how to say it. Fuck my life right now. I wasn't going to bring it up right now, but I know it's going to eat at me until I do.

"Jas." Jada called out looking at me.

"Huh?" I asked turning to her.

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah, just thinking is all."

"Ok. I have something to ask you. I don't want to make it a big deal and neither do I want to argue about it. Just give me an answer and whatever it is, I promise not to be mad."

Oh God, she knows. I knew I wasn't getting off that easy. She knew and she waited for us to get around all these people so I couldn't make a big deal about it. She knows how much I hate making scenes in public and she gonna do this to me again. I really can't deal right now.

"I'm listening," I stated waiting for it all to blow up in my face.

"I know these last few months have been really crazy for me and I really appreciate you staying by my side and helping out with my parents."

"You're so welcome baby. You know I love them like they are my own parents."

"We have been around each other a lot and I have noticed you have been making changes for the better, including opening up to me a lot more."

"Will you just spit it out Jada?" I said now getting impatient.

"Shit, I feel more nervous now than I did when we went on our first date." She stated chuckling and looking at her hands. "What I want to ask is, will you be my lady? I want you all to me and I know we have talked about this, but I figured since the way things have been going lately you would reconsider."

Looking in my baby's beautiful eyes, I wanted so badly to say yes but I knew that there was a lot we needed to talk about before we jumped into anything. I just stood there looking into her eyes hoping that someone would walk up and interrupt us. Where is Mrs. Smith when you need her? I at least had to tell her about Tori and I before we got into this.

"Look Jada I love you and you know that, but right now isn't the best time for us to get into this. There are some things we still need to talk about before either one gets into this relationship. Can we do lunch tomorrow and talk about this?"

"Sure." She stated

I could see her heart break a little bit in her eyes. I wanted to be with her just as bad as she wanted to be with me, but I didn't want to go in with a guilty conscience. As much as I was going to dread this conversation, it was going to have to happen. I really hope she doesn't change her mind because of me sleeping with Tori. These last few months have changed me a lot and I like who I am becoming. I just hate that I have no one to talk about it with.

Jada was distant from me the entire time afterwards. I tried talking to her but she was half answering me. I even tried holding her hand but she pulled her hand away and left me standing there. I headed off to the bathroom and started fixing my make-up. I heard someone come out of the stall and headed over to the sink. I never looked up once, until I heard the voice talk to me.

"What's up beautiful?" Tori stated now drying her hands.

"Nothing, what do you want?" I asked not even looking her way.