rockstar | c. baker

seventy six - home sweet home

colson
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*meanwhile in denver...*

"fuck man, i don't know why the fuck i just did that!"

"don't trip! it's not that big of a deal!"

"yes it is!"

rook gives me a flat look, "it's acid. she takes it too. she won't care."

i've been trying so hard to not get fucked up on this tour but it's so difficult.

i smoke a few joints here and there but i've been needing a good trip.

"she's taken it once."
i shake my head.

"four times, all four with me."
he smiles innocently.

"you fucking put her on acid?"

how did amanda let him convince her to take it?

"yeah."
he shrugs.

i miss her.

"she hasn't called today. wonder if she's okay."
i check my phone for the fourth time in the past ten minutes.

"she'll call. i'm sure she's just with stassie and sam."

i don't know about that.

her and gerry have been getting close.

a little too close for my comfort.

i mean sure me and chantel are too close for amanda's comfort.

but nothing is going on.

just a couple friends hanging out.

i'm sure that's all amanda and g are doing.

stassie wouldn't let anything happen.

unless she would.

"relax colson. she's fine."
rook places his hand on my shoulder, snapping me from my thoughts.

"i can't wait to be back in la with her."

"yeah i miss being home."

"i just wanna kiss her. and tell her how much i miss her."

"okay mr simp."
he laughs at me.

"i should just call her, it wouldn't hurt."

i unlock my phone and press her contact.

the phone rings twice before she picks up.

"hey, what's up babe?"
she speaks softly through the phone.

"hi baby. just calling to see what you're doing?"

"i'm about to go to bed, i have a flight tomorrow morning."

a flight?

"you aren't in la yet? i get there tomorrow night."

"we leave tomorrow morning baby. i just said that."

it's quiet for a second.

until i hear a familiar voice in the background,
"yeah see y'all in the morning."

he's with her? at 11 o'clock at night?

"where are you?"
i ask getting a little jealous.

"in my hotel room.."

"who else is there?"

she goes quiet, like she's looking around.

"stas, sam and g is just leaving."