I paused, taking in what I had just said. I definitely didn't intend to say it, but that doesn't make it any less true. I didn't meet his eyes, and he still hadn't responded. It made me really anxious and I felt more vulnerable than I ever had.
"I...I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say--"
"I love you too, Kellin."
"That." I finished my sentence in a whisper. I finally looked at Vic and he was looking back with adoration in his eyes.
"You do?" I asked, not bothering to mask the uncertainty I was feeling. He smiled and nodded his head.
"How could I not, Kellin? Everything about you makes it really hard not to fall in love with you." He chuckled, but he had no idea what he'd just done, and how much he was bound to regret it. I stared down at my hands and thought about how much it was going to destroy him when he found out what I'd done. But that wasn't going to be tonight. I couldn't ruin this at this point. So, I leaned in and kissed him, putting every ounce of myself into it. Silently telling him that he has all of my heart, and he always will.
"Do you want to go back to my house?" He asked, his breathing slightly uneven. I nodded and stood up, pulling him up with me. We put everything in the car and drove back to town. We stopped at the cafe so that he could get his car, and then I followed him to his house.
The drive gave me time to properly think things through without getting distracted by Vic. Tonight would be about us. I wasn't going to ruin this until I absolutely had to.
I pulled into his driveway and got out of my car immediately. I didn't want to think about this anymore. I wanted to focus on the now, something I hadn't done in months.
As soon as I walked inside, Vic's lips were on mine. I tangled my fingers in his hair and he rested his hands on my waist. Slowly, we started walking, not breaking the kiss for a second. Vic led us into his room and over to his bed. He broke the kiss and gently pushed me onto the bed, falling on top of me. Our lips connected again, and I felt his hands slip under my shirt, pulling it up.
I broke the kiss and he gave me a curious look.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" I asked, nearly breathless. He nodded and leant in to kiss me again, but I turned my head away. He made a frustrated sound and looked at me with pleading eyes.
"Say it." I whispered. He sighed.
"Kellin Bostwick, the only other thing I've been this sure of is that I love you." He said, completely serious. I felt my heart beat pick up just thinking about what I was about to say to him.
"I've never...done this before." I admitted quietly, completely avoiding his gaze.
"You're in luck, neither have I. But we can explore it together." He said, leaning in to kiss me. This time I didn't turn away.
His hands grabbed mine and he interlocked our fingers before pinning our hands to the bed.
"Are you ready?" He asked. Was I? Probably not. But I was willing to try it because it was something I'd be experiencing for the first time with Vic. I nodded.
"I'm ready."
~
The next morning, I groaned when Vic tried to wake me up. I wasn't ready to deal with the day yet. I felt him shake me again.
"Kellin," he whined, "Wake up. I made you pancakes." He said the last part a little closer to my ear. I finally opened my eyes, closing them again when the light nearly blinded me. I opened them once again, looking at the shirtless Mexican in front of me.
