Kevin's POV:
"It has been exactly fifteen days since I last spoke to you and it has been exactly five days since I've seen you. I've been counting because I'm a fat lonely loser and I have way to much time on my hands. The reason I'm doing this Nicole is because I have made a huge mistake. It's been weighing heavily on my mind since we had sex and at the time, it seemed like a very good idea. It was almost genius but now, now I feel awful. I've done something I really cannot take back if something comes out of it. I'm not a man who likes to beat around the bush so, I'm just going to say it."
"Nicole Garcia, I, your husband, Kevin Steen, took advantage of you that night. I'm not talking about the sex exactly because that was consensual but I am talking about protection. You didn't ask me to wear a condom and you didn't tell me if you were on birth control, so I took advantage. As we were about to have sex, I came up with this plot to get you pregnant. It was to ruin you and Cena and my god, Nicole, I have no idea what brought on that thought. It must've been the devil himself because that was sickening. That was a sickening feeling to know that I'm capable of such a heartless thought. That I could bring another life into this world out of pure selfishness and for all the wrong reasons. I apologize in advance for that because I can't go back and change what has occurred if my plan succeeds."
"As punishment for my actions, you may take the child, he or she if you have one, away from me. By the time you see this video recording of myself, I hope to keep to my distance from you. I really shouldn't force you to be in love with me as much as I am in love with you. That's not fair. I don't understand why you would choose to be with John Cena but I guess it's not my place to. I come to you via video recording because I feel as this is the only way I can get my thoughts expressed clearly. That and I know you really enjoy my face even though you slapped me across it not to long ago. Which by the way, the nail marks are still very visible and it stings everyday so thank you for that. At this point, you're probably smiling or really pissed off. If you are smiling, good. I'm honored to still have that privilege of making that gorgeous smile appear across your face."
"I don't deserve you and I don't deserve to father the child that may or not be inside of you I...I'm so sorry. I took advantage of you and I manipulated you. It's just when I woke up, that day you left me, I woke up and baby, you weren't there. Do you know what that's like? To wake up, look on the other side of you, and your heart shatters. Your whole being just explodes in front you and you literally cannot breathe. You can no longer contemplate the simplicity of oxygen? The room is spinning and your minds racing, "Where could she be? Where could she be? Oh, I'll just wait for her. Surely, she wouldn't leave without saying goodbye. Not my Flawless." But you did leave...and your absence created the monster you see here via video recording. Nicole, I am not blaming you for me being this way but I am letting you know the huge role you play in my life...or played."
"I'm going to wrap this up now with a famous French quote because as you know I am Canadian so that means I am excellent at French. I know right, how does the lovely Nicole Garcia get involved with a French Canadian fat guy? Well you know how that goes. You can't choose who you fall in love with. But uh, where was I? Oh yes. The quote. The quote is this: Vivre sans aimer n'est pas proprement vivre. And Nicole, what that simply means is To live without loving is to not really live. I choose that quote because in a way it's perfect. All this, the taunting and teasing you, the making fun of John Cena, all of it was because I love you. And my love for you is really the only thing that's keeping me alive currently. You and wrestling, you're all I got."
"I hope that this video helps you understand my point of view of everything, Nicole. I think it will but you never know. As soon as I click the red flashing button to turn this camera off, the choice is yours on exactly where and what this all means. The ball is in your court now, Nicole. Growing up, my parents would always tell me, "Kevin, follow your heart." So, Nicole, I'm telling you to do the same. I want you to be happy and if it's with...John I...I have to respect that..I'll be giving this to your sister to give to you because I'm such a shy fat fuck that I can't hand my wife a disk where I'm addressing my issues with her..but uh yeah. That's all I got so uh, bye Nicole. And remember no matter what decision you make, you'll always be apart of me."
I smiled at the camera then stood up. I walked behind it and pressed the button for it to stop recording. I stared at the button after I mashed it then turned around toward the corner where she stood, "So, what do you think?" "That was beautiful," Paige took a tissue and pretended to wipe her eyes, "Simply beautiful." I rolled my eyes then sat down, "You're such a fucking sap." "And you are too, what's your point?" "I'm only a sap when it comes to my wife. You're a sap because of little girly things." "GOD FORBID. ITS NOT LIKE IM A GIRL OR ANYTHING." I laughed. Paige and I had become close after several weeks. She's actually my first real friend in WWE, which is strange considering I swore I wouldn't make friends.
"Okay, okay. Let's go." I grabbed my jacket and she grabbed hers. "Oh Kevin, I forgot to tell you. I invited some people." I frowned, "Paige-" "I don't wanna hear it. If you're going to be in NXT, you have to make friends. Besides, you're close with Sami Zayn. He use to be your tag partner in the indy days." I raised my eyebrows, "Have you been stalking me?" "Research," She corrected in her British accent, "Research." I chuckled then sighed, "I guess I'll try and make friends for-" "For Nikki?" "To get my mind off of the madness involving her, yes, but I was gonna say for you." "For me? Aw, Kevin. You know what?" She opened the door to outside, "Ladies first."
"Ha. You think you're funny because you have a cute accent." "I think I'm cute because I know I'm cute and I know I'm cute because you're Canadian and Canadians are never cute. With the exception of Ryan Gosling." "Who is that?" Her eyes widen, "You don't know who Ryan Gosling is? Please tell me you're joking." I shook my head, "I'm not." "The Notebook?" "Well I've never seen The Notebook?" "Never seen The Notebook!? Oh my god! What the hell are they teaching you in Canada? Seriously? Well after our night out making you friends, we're coming back here and watching it. Now, go." "Paige-" "Today." I rolled my eyes and walked ahead. I felt a kick to my ass from behind me then she shouted, since it was raining, "Race you to the truck!"
That's when we took off running toward her truck in the pouring rain and I almost slipped several times. I managed to make it and we both hopped in laughing uncontrollably. That was the first time in a long time I've ever laughed with a woman. A woman who wasn't my wife...
