Nikki's POV:
I hid myself inside of Brie's home for quite sometime now. Since John hasn't returned any of my calls, I crashed with Brie and Bryan. There wasn't anything good on tv so I started skimming their dvd selection. It had to be at least four in the morning but I couldn't sleep. I've been feeling really sick for a couple days now and I felt super weak. I just wanted John but I couldn't have John so I could call Kevin but I don't wanna call Kevin because he's an ass. I don't understand what's going on with my body because this all just happened so suddenly. I can't keep anything down and the only thing I can really drink is water. I hated this feeling. I mean I hate being sick in general but this sick is really taking a toll on me. I took week after week off because I just couldn't physically get in the ring when I hardly can stand. I continued to skim their dvd rack when I stumbled upon something.
I tugged it from the rack and in bold black sharpie on the cover read: To Flawless, From Kevin. Please watch ASAP. You must watch. I'm serious. No bullshit. Just watch the fucking dvd. I chuckled shaking my head. Typical Kevin. Wait if it's to me then why does Brie have it? I looked around and sat back down on the couch flipping it over in my hands. This DVD made me really curious. I took it out of the case and placed disk inside the DVD player. Okay Kevin Steen. This better be good.
"Is it on? We good?" His face appeared on the screen and he was talking to someone behind the camera. Whoever it was, must've gave him a thumbs up because he did the same. He smiled then rubbed his hands together. He begun. I listened to every single word of Kevin's apology but I couldn't help but realize how much I've been missing him lately. Which is crazy because I'm the one keeping the distance between us. I know if I really wanted to I could hop in my car and go on across town back to the shitty motel he's staying in and there he will be. Now whether he's sober or not, I never know the difference.
I laughed at the beginning when he called himself a fat lonely loser because he always refers to himself negatively. Never ask him how he describes himself because he will not give you one positive trait. Even though he has a lot of those. I watched him and he seemed really serious so I knew this hard for him to do. The fat lonely loser joke is probably his defense for what he's about to say next. His serious tone made me nervous and I felt like I should probably stop watching. But I didn't. I kept on watching.
My heart dropped when he revealed that he intentionally didn't wear a condom...I literally couldn't breathe. Son of a bitch. I never knew he can sink so low. He knows. He knows how much I want children and he took advantage of that. I paused the DVD and stood up face to face with the screen that his face was plastered on. I got really angry and started yelling at it, "You monster! Who does that!? Who takes advantage of someone like that!? Why would you do that!? It'd be a cold day in hell before I have your baby, Kevin! This just shows how immature you are! God, you're just sooo jealous of John. You'll never be him. No matter how hard you train, you will never be half the man that John is! I.." I didn't realize I was crying until I felt tears stream down my cheeks.
"Nicole? Nicole! Oh my god, what's wrong?" I turned around and Brie, along with Bryan, stood at the end of the hall looking really concerned. "Why didn't you give me this DVD? Why am I just now finding this!?" I looked at my sister as she looked at the tv screen. "Nicole, you were so upset with him and I felt like the last thing you needed was to see his face. I was going to tell you. I swear. I just didn't wanna see you upset-" "Like I am now!? Have you seen this DVD!?" "I haven'to because it was addressed to you." "He's such a douchebag! I can't believe him..why would he be so cruel? Why would." I stopped feeling sick again and I raced passed them both toward the bathroom.
It was when I started throwing up in the toilet, when I realized why I was so sick..
