Nikki's POV:
What have I done? I can't believe I just slept with Kevin again. What is it about that man that I just simply cannot say no to? He's an asshole. He's a psychopath. He disrespects my relationship with John. The list goes on. Kevin Steen has no respect for anyone or anything and yet, every time I'm around him, I end up in bed with him. Lucky this time I was drunk but, this is still wrong. If I keep sleeping with Kevin, he'll think that he still has a shot. He doesn't. He needs to realize that our fairytale has already been written and it turned into a tragedy. He needs to move on. The problem is that besides myself, no one would put up with his shit.
"Shit. Kevin, my god. We have to stop." I sat up afterwards and he remained lying there. He looked at me confused, "Stop what?" "Kevin, I cannot keep sleeping with you behind John's back." "Well then don't sleep with me behind his back then. Come clean, lose him, and be with me." I looked at him. I don't know if it's just because we'd just slept together but he looked really innocent like a lost puppy. I looked away and started searching for my clothes. I have to get out of here. Away from Kevin. Away from the madness because if I stay here, I'll end up falling trap to Kevin again. I already have a bad enough habit of wanting him. "Nicole, don't go." I stood up getting dressed ignoring him. Kevin sat up putting his shirt back on then his shorts.
"Please stay.." "Kevin, I have to go. You can't keep doing this to me! You can't just manipulate me because you know you can! I'm not the same girl you married. I'm not weak minded. I'm not easy to control. I'm not the Nicole you married." "I know that's why I came looking for you. That's why I wanna be with you. I mean Jesus, Nicole. I only accepted WWE's offer to me so I can be close to you." "Well that was stupid. Why the hell would you do that?" Kevin shook his head smiling but it wasn't one of those happy smiles. It was one of those frustrated smiles. "I guess I'm just too in love with you. I guess I care just a little too much about your stubborn ass to ever walk away from you. All I wanna do is give you what you know John will never give you. Kids. Marriage. All of it, you want, he doesn't, so why are you wasting your time with him? What? Oh because you can change him? Because you will be the one to change it all for Mr. Never Back Down, Never Give Up. I've got some news for you Nikki, he's given up! He doesn't love you! He uses you because you're beautiful and you're to blind to even tell! Or maybe, just maybe you do and you don't say anything because you think that's all your good for."
I teared up, "Well isn't it?" He shook his head, "No, it's not. The world sees Nikki Bella as this high class, arrogant, good for nothing, can't wrestle, only getting over because she's dating John Cena, bitch. That's a pretty harsh reality isn't it? Living in a world who base who you are off a character you play on a three hour show every Monday and a two hour show every Friday? Trust me. I know the feeling. Do you wanna know why I'm such a dick to you in public? Because I want you to stand up to me. I want you to call me out on all my shit and hit me a few times. When you slapped me, I loved it and-where are you going?" I was at the door with my hand on the knob about to turn it. "I have to go, Kevin..." "No." "I have to go. I'm sorry."
My heart broke as I opened the door and heard Kevin say, "You're leaving me again? Just like that? No explanation just like last time?" I wiped the tears off my face with my back turned to him and whispered, "I'm sorry, Kevin. I can't do this anymore."
I quickly got out of there.
