Secret Paradise

Chapter 8

This is dedicated to iloveCOLEim5

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I cried and cried and I didn't know why. All I wanted was my olds life. This one was shitty. I hated having everything except that one thing. 

Cole.

Everyday I saw him at school with his girl friend. Them wrapped up in eachothers arms. His eyes shined like then normally do when hes with me. Everytime their lips touched I cringed with pain.

"What's wrong with you?" A girl I had never seen before asked. 

"Who are you?"

"Abbey. We've been in the same classes since fourth grade."I looked confused at her trying to figure out who she was."I sit across from you in math."

"Who?"

"Unbeileveable." She said walking away shaking her head in frustration. 

It didn't shock me that I didn't know who she was. After my dad "Died" I stopped paying attention to people. They only one I talked to or hung out with was Cole. Or at least I use too hang out with him. Why did we stop becoming friends.

I went the whole day with out talking or looking at any one. Human contact was not good for me right now. i was a nervous reck. A bomb ready to explode at any given moment.

"Hey nedd a ride home?" My heart stopped. He was talking to me.

I hesitated before answering. I was wondering if he would flip on me when I tried to open the door.

"Look I don't have all day I have to get home and do home work." I nodded and opened the car door.

Slipping in to the passengers seat I thought about how i would ask him what was in my mind. This felt strange. Normally I could say what ever was on my mind and not care what he thought but everything was different now.

"When did you start to drive?"

"After I got my lissens." He said blankly.

"No duh! I was just wondering when. I never knew you could drive."

"what is wrong with you? You've been acting so weird these past couple of weeks."

"Nothing. What's wrong with us?'

"Us."

"Yes us why aren't we friends anymore?"

"I don't know."

"You don't know. Come on you have to know."

"I don't...."He ran his fingers through his hair. " I mean I guess it was because you were uncool and the time so I just went with the flow."

"Just went with the flow?"I said more than asked. " You dropped kicked me because you wanted to go with the flow?" My voice started to raise." Is that what you're telling me?"

"See that's another reason why; you get all crazy about stuff."

I lowered my voice"Sorry."

"it's okay your cute when your mad."

"You think I'm cute?"

"Did I say that out loud?" His face started to turn a bright pink.

"Kinda."

"Well Then yes you are cute when your mad. I kinda miss hang out with you like old times."

"Then let's change that and start to hang out again."

"Okay. Let's go to my house."

"okay."

We played video games for hours and laughed. It felt good to have him back after him being gone for what seemed like forever.

"so you and your girlfriend?"

"We broke up."

"Really?" My voice percked up.

"Don't sound so happy."He laughed.

"Sorry but I didn't like her."

"Yeah neither did I."

"Then why did you go out with her."

"Because I love you."

"you do." I've herd this from him before but it felt weird and like a shock.

He lened in for a kiss and music started to play. Wait music? And that's when I realized this was all a dream.