Secret Paradise

Chapter 12

"Hey. You find anything yet?"

This was the fourth time this week he has asked me this week. I knew how much he wanted to leave for L.A. No one knew as much as I how much he wanted to leave too.

"No Cole I haven't yet. I've looked ever where." Truth was I haven't looked since I found the key.

"Have you asked your mom about anything yet?"

"Nope."

"Look I'm trying to help you find it so we can get out of here. Isn't that what you wanted? To leave this place. These people. Just leave it all. But we can't do that if you don't try."

I should say something but I can't. After finding those pictures all I ever seem to is cry and remember everything. How happy my family kinda was when he was here. I never had the strenght to look for anything anymore.

"Im sorry. I shouldn't have went off on you like that."

"No it's okay. I needed that. I need some motivation to get back to looking. Thanks Cole! Bye." 

"But-" He couldnt finish. The line went dead with a click of a button.

Sometimes I wish our problems went away like that. Just press a button and everything ends unless you want it to continue. But would I want it all to end like that. Then I'd never get to go to L.A with Cole. Or finally have a place where I fit in.

I got up off my bed. It's Saturday so mom should be home from work. Maybe I will ask her if she knows anything.  

No! 

I cant let her know. She'll try to take it for herself like she does everything I get. 

"Hey mom can I ask you something?" 

"What?" she ask slightly annoyed. 

"Do you have anymore of dads stuff I can look at?" 

"Why do you need your fathers stuff?" 

"Summer project for AP English." Ap english yeah right. Hopefully I'll be gone before school starts.

"Have you checked the attic?" 

"Yeah. I've looked in there. There's nothing really interesting." 

"What do you need that interesting?" 

"I don't anything that I cant turn in to an A+ worthy assignment."

She was quiet for a minute. Finally she sighed "Fine come with me."

She took me back upstairs towards her room. She told me to wait by the door and went to her closet. She was seaechig franticly for what ever she was gonna give me. Finally she came out with a big box.

"Here. If you can open it everything in there is yours to keep rather you use it for your project or not."

I picked up the big box and looked at it. There was a key hole. Sweet baby Jesus that looks about as big a the key around my neck.

"Thank you mom. You don't know how much this is gonna help and changd everything." 

"Change what your grae. You might not even be able to get it open." 

"Right. Thanks mom."

I tried to run to my room but the box wouldn't let me. I walked as fast as I could to get to my mom and look inside. I placed it on my bed and took the key from around my neck.

I can't open it. I grabbed my phone and called Cole.

"You ready to talk and not hang up on people?" He sounded like a bowl full of sarcasm. 

"Keep it up and I wont tell you what I found." 

"What did you find?" 

"Something of my dads but I'm afraid to open it by myself." 

"I'll be there in 2. Your window open?" 

"Of course it like 100 degrees out side. 

"Okay." The line went dead but not before I heard him outside my window climbing.

I helped him in but not before saying"You can use the door hou know that."

"I don't want your puppy love of a sister to see me." 

I giggled"I gottcha."

"So where's this item of interest?"I pointed to the box of wonders. " You have a key for this baby?"I nodded handing him my neck-less. 

He took the key and entered it in the hole. I prayed it fit. 

I did. 

Cole turned the key unlocking it. He opened the lid."What's in there?" 

"Come look." 

I walked closer and looked inside. There was papers and books and pictures. No money.

"Well that was a waste." I said deafeted. Now we'll have to stay here in this hell.

"No. maybe you need to read these papers."

"Do you she how many papers and books are in here?"

"Yeah. If we read them we can end up getting done with them quicker."

"Okay but I want the books you can have to loose papers." 

"Okay." 

We each took a set and went of the read.

I opened the book to the first page: 

To Dylan. I've wrote this to you because I want you to know everything. 

Nov. 7 2009 

They say I'm getting wosres. I've told no one but Cole's dad. I regret it because I caught him with your mother. I think you know what I mean by with. I've know for a while but have never seen it for myself til now. Cole's mom doesnt know anything. Keep it that way. The last thing you need is Cole to be out of your life. I like that kid he knows what he's doing and is smart.

Well if you reading this it means everything went wrong and I'm not breathing anymore. I'm sorry butterfly. I know your mom is treating you like a nothing to her.

Im telling you know Dylan. I've written everything in this book all the family secrets. even the ones your mom think i dont know about. So if you dont wanna know stop here. i wont be mad. I'll understand.

If you're still reading I'm gonna tell you why your mom is like that. Your sister is not your full sister. More like half sister. Your mother thinks I dont know this but Cole's father is your sisters father. Your mother and Cole's father have been together for along time behind both my back and his wife's back. You're mom is so mean to you because you remind her of what she did to ruin everything she wanted.

She was gonna marry Cole's dad but got pregnant with you. He never told her about Cole either. She didn't know until that day they moved here. Don't tell you're sister you know how she'll react to this.

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Sorry it's taking so long. I feel bad because I promised someone on tumblr saturday that I would have it up by monday. I'm posting what I have now so you guys have something to hold you over til the end. Hope you like it. Let me know what you think please and thank you.

Lizzie Xoxo