I watched Stokeley take my medicine out of the pill bottles and before walked over to me with them in his hand and a water bottle. "Here open."
I opened my mouth and let him put the pills in before taking the water and drowning the pills down. I opened my mouth and moved my tongue around to show him that I swallowed my pills.
He nodded, "what do you wanna do today?" He asked me as he got into the bed next me. I moved on top of him, straddling his lap and then stuffed my head in his chest.
"You wanna cuddle baby?" He asked me.
I just nodded my head, I heard him let out a sigh so I sat up and looked at him, "you don't want to cuddle."
"No it's not that, it's just I- don't get mad baby okay." He frowned and sat up, wrapping my legs around his waist.
"Okay," I agreed.
"I'm going to send you back home, tomorrow," He told me.
"Why?" I frowned.
"Cause I feel like taking you away is what's triggering all these things that have been going on," He told me.
"I've always been this way, I just haven't had my medicine to help me control it," I explained. I leaned forward and wrapped myself in his arms. "I wanna stay here with you."
"Jahseh," He mumbled.
Jahseh? What the fuck is Jahseh?
"No im not leaving I wanna stay here with you, I'm happy isn't that what you wanted?" I asked.
"Yes but-"
"You don't want me no more," I frowned as the tears invaded my eyes. I moved from his lap and sat on the bed next to him.
Why are you surprised. I told you we aren't good enough to be loved.
"I know."
I looked at stokeley and he just ran his hands over his face, "I do but you got a lot going on and I-"
"You what?" I asked.
"It's not the same," he mumbled.
"So you're telling me that you get to kidnap me, have your fun and make me fall in love with you, and then kick me to the curb cause it's not the same? No this is where we figure out the problem and fix it." I explained.
"There's nothing to fix," he shrugged.
"You know what, just take me home right now. I'm not staying here longer than I'm wanted. And not you trying to use my mental illness to justify your actions."
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