Her Beef 7: Better Days

Chapter Eleven

                            Aubrey

My heart broke hearing the one person that I considered family tell me another man was deserving of my wife's love. Who the fuck did Shakeya think she was? How dare her say some shit like that. I know I have fucked up in the past but I have been changing and doing a lot better. I been being the best husband I know how to be.

"Chubbs can you believe what the fuck she said?" I asked him. If anybody would be real it would be my boy Chubbs.

He gave me this look that told me I didn't want to know what he really thought. Damn did everyone feel the same damn way.

"Tell me Chubbs." I said.

"I told you so many times you weren't ready to get married. You still got that single man shit going on with you when u go on the road. I told you on ya wedding day don't get married if you can't stay faithful to her. This situation right here isn't your fault but all the other shit Key said was right." He said.

I didn't know what to say cause everybody was saying the same shit to me. Hell my own daughters said I don't make their mother happy. I don't see myself with anyone other than Desire.

When we got to the house I just went an sat in my office for a second. The divorce papers Des had giving me were sitting on my desk. Did she really want to call it quits?

I don't know how to feel or what to think at this moment. I know everybody's emotions are on high cause we don't know if Des is gonna pull through, but is it really all me. It kills me to think my wife would be better off with another man.

Why does everyone want to see her with another man? They act like I'm a fucking monster. I love her more than I have ever loved any women in life. She gave my three wonder children and so much happiness.

As I sat there I thought back on the first day I met her and how she was just so beautiful. She wouldn't fall for anything that I was trying to pull on her. I was with Dawn at the time but that relationship was already on the verge of being over.

The shit wit Robyn was off and on before I got wit Des. Hell even me and Alyssa was off and on Kima too.

I took a shot of Ciroc cause my mind and emotions really started playing tricks on me. I was the one that kept fucking around. Hell Desire only started fucking with August when we had broken up. I was the one causing the pain. I was the one that kept putting her in fucked up situations. I did have a child with another woman outside of our relationship.

"Damn." I said to myself out loud.

Maybe I should let her go, but I feel like I could make this marriage work. I wanted my kids to have a two parent home. I never wanted another man raising my kids.

Did Desire really love August? Was she in love with August?

I went in each of my children's rooms watching them sleep. I want them to be in a happy environment and if they don't see their mother happy then they won't be happy.

When I looked at my son Aubrey Jr. I wanted him to be a good man when he got older. I wanted him to treat his wife like a Queen. I wanted him to find a loyal faithful woman like his mother.

I wasn't good for her and I knew she only stuck with me cause she wanted her family together because of her own childhood.

I picked up the pen and signed my name on all the lines my signature belonged on the divorce papers. If I couldn't do anything else right I would give her happiness and the freedom to be happy with whom ever she wanted to be with without any guilt.